Warning its a Mess

just trying to get by

Just listen it's sad and true and I can't make you believe it but it's my life so it all started off on December 17th people my age so I'm not going to put the year but it started off in a hospital with a mom that cared so much and dad that could care less and they had to give me up they had to give me up because people thought they weren't good enough but they loved me at least my mom did so after I got token away I went to a Christian family they went to church every Sunday and they wanted me to be there cute Christian girl but that's not what I am and they recently found out that and it's not the best here but that's okay because one day I'll be happy and I know I will just might take a while again I'm getting sidetracked but as far back as I can remember was I think at least till I was like three for three years I can't remember anything so when I was 3 I had a hard time talking to people and that's kind of where my social anxiety started and then I'm pretty sure when I was 4 I started hating my family I just hated them so much and I still do and then five an event that I wish for no one to experience happened I was raped by my nephew he was at least 8 and she raped me I don't remember much of what happened I kind of blacked it all out but it was awful it was the lowest point I've ever felt that was the lowest I think any five year old has ever felt and to this day none of my family knows yet they won't believe me anyway they never believe me it's always what they think that matters but it's okay because I won't be here one day and I'll be someplace happy at least I hope so