Warning its a Mess

im still trying

So to start off from where I was last time I kind of got a low self-esteem Rush but I'm kind of better now like two minutes after but back onto the story I turned site in my parents took me to a Pre-K I didn't know what it was and then they just left I cried and cried that whole day but then I met people I lost contact with them now but that's life then when I was 7 I started kindergarten and it was difficult especially since immediately I had a school bully and that lasted until about 4th grade but I don't have contact with him anymore we eventually went to different schools but now I'm starting a new school which I not thrilled about I would much rather be in the same school with my girlfriend but I'm not of course that's my luck but while I was in elementary I don't really remember much other than getting bullied then I started 5th grade it was the worst year of my life I wanted to kill myself I had to go to a rich school as the poor boy I am and I had a teacher sexually harassed me during that year so that was amazing am I right... Okay then sixth grade I had so much anxiety and depression and my self-esteem was very well I wore a coat and tight clothes cuz I thought I would look thinner which I didn't So eventually in the middle of the year I just gave up and wore baggy clothes and eventually I gave up every single other year I just gave up trying to fit in I just wore baggy clothes and held my books school isn't that amazing and I never had good experiences but school is always way better than my Summers cuz every summer I would just have depression and I try to date people and they break up with me and it happens every summer and every time I tell myself I'm going to stop dating and then the next day I have a new boyfriend or girlfriend but I'm still trying