I want to write this because I don't want to forget my dream. Last night, my parent came into my dream. I lost both of my parents when I was still a baby. Anyways, there's not much to write because I don't remember much about my dream. I don't even remember their faces. I never saw them, in real life and in dreams. All I could remember is, in my dream, I was still a little kid. Maybe between 5 or 6. Strangely, I have the memory of everything that has happened in my life up till now. So, I told my parent everything but I couldn't remember their response. I only remember being in their arms while talking to them. And I remember telling them about my first heartbreak. I bawled my eyes out while telling them this, and this is when I feel their arms tighten around my body. I feel this warm feeling and I can feel the warmth of their hands wrapping around my cold body. Strangely, I can feel the warmth literally. Like, I was still dreaming but I feel like I can feel it in real life. Anyways, I was crying when I told them about my heartbreak story. I cried in my dream and I was crying while I was sleeping. When I woke up, I can feel my pillow was soaked. I told them, "All I want is to say goodbye one last time. We kind of end just like that. At least tell me why. I still remember I told her how I lost you guys and want to feel your love. She promised me that she will love me even though it wasn't like those of parents love. I believed her, I believed her words. I still do. But I didn't expect her to leave me just like you guys did." This is all i can remember. I did not make up this story. It was real. IT happen.
Maybe for the first time since she left me, this is probably the happiest moment I've feel. I remember they hug me, the warmth of their hands, I remember feeling their love. My only wish is, I can feel them in real life. Mom, Dad, I miss you. Although, I never met you guys but I really, really need you guys now. It's hard facing all of this by myself. Maybe if you guys are here I don't have to be alone. Maybe I can finally have a home. Maybe I can finally have someone. Maybe. I miss you.
