Aarmau book

why no uploads !?

HEYYYYYY SOOOOOOooooooooo........

Okay so I haven't updated the Aarmau nor Garmau book for 4 reasons mostly this is dealing with the Aarmau book. Garmau book will be updated shortly after this hopefully explaining why I didn't upload that book. 

So 4 reasons I didn't update/upload on the Aarmau book

1) the Aarmau book is mostly going to be up to date with the videos so I had to wait a bit before getting some more chapters down. however on spare time , I will make some based of of MCD, or PDH and the beginning of Mystreet.

2) I was thinking about making a book where I take request on your ships and make a small chapter giving you credit and everything ! I have yet to decide but hopefully I can arrange something so I can help readers have their dreams come true. 

3) ZANE-CHAN HAPPENED AND I'M HAPPY AND I JUST ..AHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!! ANYWAYS , I want to have a couple of Zane-chan chapters but that will be made in a separate  book. which is why I held back to do anything so do any of you want a Zane-chan book or chapters put out randomly?? I will take request and credit and everything will be given to you but I need to know first who all is okay and will support it.

 4) .....This is more of a personal matter. Over the past month that I have been gone, I was seeing an old friend who slowly I came to like more than a friend. they came up to me and told me they too liked me . So we gave it a try. I was happyso me and this friend were dating and we were happy to say the least.  I wasn't eating as much bc they were judging me and they tried ruining my friendship with someone .

 they Judged me on my eating habits because I was only just overweight by 5 pounds .around the 3rdi think of July, I got a text from a friend because of a party they were throwing. I was going to go seeing as they are my best friend . They themselves said they would drop of the invite to my house . 2 day later. 

the day came where they came to give me they invite but they stopped by at 10:30 ish.  well the one I was dating stopped by an hour before and tried to get me to go out the house to get me but I Told them no , making them mad and they said 10:30 . 10:30 ish my friend came to give me the invite .the 15th comes around and ....it was raining and I can't be in the car when it rains unless i have my earbuds and I'm sitting in the back seat (bad accident happened before and so it keeps me calm)we went out early to go get my friend a gift but I couldn't find anything . whatever I did find was out of stock or sold out . It wasn't until we stopped by a store when I noticed that my date was talking to the manager and worker , asking them to lie to me on any of the stuff I was interested in buying as a gift. I  confront them and I asked them to take me to the party. It was 2pm so by the time I got back  for the party it would be 3:20 giving me time to change into different clothes . Well they made me get there at 4 , the time of the party and it was raining...they decided , since I was in the front seat with my earbuds on that they had no need to ask me if they should take me home or let me move to the back and get to the party. 

  I was PISSED !!!!!they took me home and the last thing they said to me before they left was that they were helping me . I went inside and asked my dad to take me but he couldn't because of the rain ,I had no gift ! No ride! and no good excuse other than that my ride to the party was an ass. So I went with my family shopping ,  feeling guilty. I missed the year before and missing this year made me feel like a bad friend.  . I was gonna just tell them I fell ill , but the 16th, the day after the party, they texted me and I told them I was sorry,that I felt so bad for missing out and that I was just a bad friend......but they said I was a true friend and that it was okay that i missed out .....but I know they were mad at me. 

a week passed and I was talking to my cousin , the one who helps a lot with the accounts...and they made me split up with that person and I was seeing someone new and I still am seeing them.....but the time I was with them, made me fall back to a bad state of mind....and I hated it.I took time away and went on walks and talked to old friend.

SO I feel bad still about the 15th, and I feel like I could have done better ....I feel better now and things are calm, but I have yet to talk to my friend ... I want to restart on my writing and help others out in anyway !!!!!!!! 

I just want to keep you all updated and I just wanted to see what you all think with the new ideas. so feel free to message me your ideas and leave your opinions below . I love you all and thank you for being patient with me !!!