Sex Trip [Jay Park fanfic]

Cool off

It's been a long week. A long week full of dance practice, dance practice and even more dance practice. Jay is a perfectionist. He wants us to be flawless, so the girls and I have been practicing with Ken literally every day. At least that kept both my mind and body busy and away from Jay. He pops in the studio every now and then, but he also seems to be focused on getting everything on point for the tour.

As the weekend rolls around, I am getting more and more anxious about Monday. We leave for the tour and not only I haven't packed, but I haven't even sorted out my relationship issues.

Any time I think about Josh, a dark cloud forms over my heart. How can I leave for three months, knowing that we have unfinished business? I need to talk to him and get it over with.

It's finally Saturday and I have some time to relax! I figured I need to start packing. I pull my big black suitcase out of the dusty storage room and place it on the floor in front of my closet. I'm trying to pack as less as possible, but my overstuffed closet makes it very hard to chose just a few clothes.

"Hey, what are you doing?" Josh suddenly appears from behind our bedroom door

"Oh, hey.. I'm just packing.. for tour"

"Oh, right... Where I'm not allowed to come..!" Josh says exactly what I was hoping he wouldn't

"Josh...." I close my eyes and take a big breath before siting on the bed next to him

"What is it huh? What are you afraid of?.... Why are you so possessive?" I finally ask the question I've been dying to ask for years

He seems shocked. As if he wasn't aware of it this whole time.

"You think I'm possessive?" he seems annoyed

"Babe... you don't think it's a little unreasonable for you to wanna be with me all the time? Even at work?"

"I just don't feel comfortable knowing you'd be alone, surrounded by all those rapper dudes"

"Josh... you have to learn how to trust me"

"I don't think I can do that..."

I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

"Then I'm afraid it's never going to work..."

I can see Josh staring into the void. He doesn't look surprised or sad, as if he's been fully aware all this time of what I just said.

"Why do you make it so hard? We wouldn't have this issue if you were more understanding"

"I'm not understanding? You know how many guy friends I've cut out of my life for you?"

I can feel myself getting worked up, but I don't care. He needs to hear this.

"Why do you even need any guy friends?" he starts getting defensive

"Why? Cause I like hanging out with them! They're just my friends!"

"At least Jay will be there to keep an eye on you. I'll make sure his friends stay away from you"

I freeze. I can't believe he just said that.

"I'm not a baby, Josh. You can't ask people to 'keep an eye on me'. And Jay is practically my boss, do you realize how unprofessional that would be?"