Saving Grace

New Situation

I knew my mum tried to be there for me more and more, after the day she asked me to go camping during holidays.

~Two weeks til the end of the school year~

She now mostenly was home when I came back from school.
I didn't know what to do in this situation. I was so used to being alone in my room, that I felt quite akward getting asked how school was and how I felt.
But I tried my best getting used to longer talks with my mum.

She tries everythink. Only for you. Get your stuff together and be happy!
Just for her.

And at that time, I made another mistake.
The mistake of becoming happy for someone else.

The mistake of fooling myself.

I smiled a lot when I was around my mum and sister.
And I actually felt better.

But the sudden fall in to deep thoughts and depressions, as soon as I was alone, felt worse each time.

As happy as I was with them, as sad was I deep inside.

It wasn't just my friends leaving. But with them, all my hopes and happiness.

I tried to become someone new. For my family.
They deserve it. They deserve a happy version of yourself
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