Fate Or Faith?

Faith

Being in the sky, amongst the clouds, feeling as though there is endless opportunities out there for you, the world at your feet, quite literally. Then reality hits, the life you're living is not your own, not really. So many anchors holding you down, preventing you from floating away, doing your own thing. 

Life getting in the way of actually living.

Currently, I am thousands of feet above the ground and these heavy thoughts aren't heavy enough to bring me back to land. Away from California, away from home, and away from my friends. I can't believe this is happening.

I was thrilled at first, to get on an aeroplane and to go to London, I've never left the country you see. But now there is another purpose to this visit, which has crushed the excitement.

All this because of one silly mistake... Okay, okay if we have to be specific then I may have made plenty of mistakes, which could have ALL accumulated to this very moment, but we're all human right, so mistakes should be normalised, no?

One of the biggest mistakes I made happened a year ago, March 2017.

It was like any other day, me being sent to the Principal's office, only this time my parents had been invited to join us. He welcomed us in with a look of grave disappointment as he made his way behind his desk and took a seat with his hands clasped together. He sighed deeply before he began to open his disturbingly large mouth, oh the nightmares I used to get because of it.

'Mr and Mrs Anderson, I am very sorry to bring you in like this, but we have put up a lot with Faith over the years. Chance after chance, and there has been no progress in her studies and her behaviour. As a faculty we have gathered and much discussed this matter. We have come to the conclusion that we can no longer tolerate such behaviour. Especially because not only are the students affected, but my staff members too. I – '

'Please, just give her one last chance, just one. It's nearly her final year, surely you can keep her just until then' mum said interrupting the principle with her pointless pleading. Honestly woman, I was liking where this was going, why change his mind?

'Exactly, the final year! This is an important year for ALL our students. I cannot risk their education by giving Faith another chance, with the most likely possibility that it'll be thrown back at my face. Stealing answers and cheating on her exam, that was the final straw, I cannot allow that kind of behaviour to continue. Now I do apologise, but we have had enough of her antics, this is my final decision; she is hereby expelled from this school' Principle Robinson spat in a stern voice as he got up to show my parents the door.

They were not happy. Me, on the other hand, I was ecstatic. No more shitty school for me. No more stupid teachers telling me what to do, no more dumb assignments that make no sense. Yay!! I would've high fived my parents if I could, and they would have responded; only their hands would have landed on the side of my face, so yeah maybe not.

Once I got home and had to listen to the longest lecture ever by my parents, I went to my room and I twerked the pain of my parents irritating voices away. Obviously, my friends at school weren't so happy with the decision, I mean I was the life of the party, and now they'll have no one to entertain them. Oh well, no more school for me!!

(Present)

Little did I know that getting expelled was the dumbest thing I ever did as it left no room for any other mistakes to be made. There were already plans made to go to London, my aunt's youngest daughter is getting married and we're invited of course. We were supposed to be there for a holiday, but there's like a 99% chance that I may not be coming back home with my parents.

A few weeks before I found myself sitting by the window seat of an aeroplane; a shocking news had emerged from the mouth of my own mother...

'Your father and I have discussed this for a while now and we think its for the best that you stay with your aunt in London', she casually let out.

'Mum, please don't do this! PLEASE! I'll do better. I promise. Just don't send me away', I begged and begged her. Only to hear the same response over and over again. She would say 'Faith, we can't do this anymore. We've had enough of your antics, its- '.

'Oh, I've heard that before. And last time it was said, I was expelled from school. So, tell me mother, are you really going to follow Principle Robinson's footsteps and expel me from my own home? I mean seriously come on; I've barely done anything wrong'. I exclaimed, but to no avail.

'Not done anything wrong? You just said it yourself, you had been expelled from school, we have tried to home-school you. We have tried and tried to work around your behavioural problems. But you just won't stop getting into trouble. It's one thing after another with you! And now you've just turned 17, not even an adult and yet you think you can do as you please. Faith I can't... I can't take it anymore' Mum sighed all in one long and sad breath.

This was it; I had pushed them too far... they really were going to send me away.

All this because I went to a party, WHICH by the way, they gave me permission to go to, it's not my fault time ran away from me, next thing I know its way past midnight. My bad.

'You came home at 6 in the morning. Drunk... No, we're done with this. No need to discuss this further you're going to live with your aunt in London and that is final', finally dad spoke up in a low, harsh tone, adding to my disappointment.

So here I am, on my way to my execution. Okay so I might be a tad bit dramatic but like what on earth am I going to do over there, drink tea and watch it non-stop raining?

This is going to be the worst year of my life.