Ray's Diary

Diary Day 2 Trying to calm my nerves

     School finished at 3.00 pm and i'm in the library again trying to finish my History Homework. I have a habit, that after school i always finish my homework, so i don't have to do it at home.

     I finished it at 4.00 pm so i pack my bag and went home. When i exit the library, i know that none of the students likes to stay in school until evening, only the ones who likes to stay in school a little longer. I walked through the hallway and i hear some noise coming from the Science Lab. It's more of moaning sound. I'm a curious girl but i'm also a "Don't Care" girl, but i check it anyway. And it is the most disgusting thing to watch.

     I ran through the hallway to the main lobby and out to the school gate. I just saw my Chilhood best friend making up in the Science Lab with the school whore. Well it's necessary for him to do that cause he is the Jocks anyway, but for me to look at something so disgusting and horrible like that, it's not on my list.

     But, i still have that feelings for Jae, well it's not easy to move on when he is the first thing in your life that make you happy.

     "What the fuck did i just saw ?" I screamed to myself.

     I must calm myself !! I must NO i have to, fuck what is wrong with me, shit !! I slap myself.

     I continued, to walk home. On my way, i'm thinking about how to erase that stupid memory. I'm not used to seeing people making out in public places, especially when it's in school.

     "God, i must take a good nap when i reach home !" I say to myself.

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When i reached home, i go straight to the bathroom to wash myself up. In the bathroom, the only thing in my mind was, what happend today ? I still can't believe what i just saw. Untill i recall the memory when he started bully me at school, and hate me with no reason. I'm asking myself,

     "Jae...What did i do wrong ? What did i do wrong until you hate me that much ?" i asked myself.

     I didn't realised, a single tear fell.

     I finished washing myself up. After that, i changed to my pj's and went straight to the kitchen to cook for my empty stomach. If you ask where is Uncle G and Aunt Gill ? Well they texted me that they won't be home until tomorrow morning, so i have the whole house to myself.

     I went to my room after finishing my dinner, and open my laptop. I finished my work at 8.00 pm and of to dreamland.

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     I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing like crazy. I don't want to wake up.

     But then i remember, i didn't set alarm for today, so why is my phone ringing like crazy ?

     I check the notifications on my phone, and what happen next is ... WOW is this real ? Like, OMYGOSH can i slap myself ?

I didn't expect that ...