Finn and Rachels Prom.

Chapter 4

Finns POV

This is a lame prom. I'm really not even having fun. Maybe it's because I came here with the wrong person. I look down at Quinn, she has my hands and is swaying her hips trying to be sexy. It sort of it, but probably not as good as Rachel could do it. Finn, snap out of it. Stop thinking of Rachel, she broke your heart.
Wait, thinking of Rachel, where is she? Last time I saw her she was singing on stage. Not to mention singing a song that was basically about us. It summed up our relationship perfectly.
I look across the floor only to see Rachel and Jesse dancing. She looks like she's having fun. Maybe she's happier without me. But she is still with Jesse, and something about him just makes my skin crawl. Maybe it's because Jesse and I have always been in competition. Not only with singing, but also for Rachel's love. He won the first time, and it was winning the second, until I basically gave up and broke up with Rachel. Something about him being back reminds me of how much I love Rachel though. Maybe it's because I'm jealous she is here with him. Or maybe it's because of how badly he treated her, and she still forgave him. Mainly it's the fact that I hate knowing his hands are on her, when it should be mine. I hate that he kisses her, because I would have loved to been the only guy that had ever kissed her. I was her first, and I loved that so much. I loved knowing that I had shared something with her that no one else ever would. I loved knowing she trusted me with her first for something.
When I think of Rachel, all I can think about is how we had more good memories than bad. All I can remember is the way she made me feel special and wanted. She made me feel joy that I had never felt before. She made me feel most alive, and I gave it all away because of one mistake she made. I'm so stupid. I had it all, until I skewed it up.
After tonight, I am promising myself to win her back, no matter what. Am I prepared for this though? What about Quinn? She will be so mad. I push my thoughts away. I'll think about that more tomorrow, I don't want to make a decision like that if I haven't thought it all the way through, and I defiantly don't want to make this decision based off of pure jealousy that she's here with home and not me.
"Are you excited?" I tear my eyes off Rachel and look down at Quinn.
"For what?" I ask. I swear to god, if she talks about that prom queen crowning again, I am going to kick over a chair or something.
"To win prom king and queen silly." She smiles. I can't help but ask her, "Are you using me just for this, or do you actually love me? Because a lot of times, all I think is your only dating me for this." She looks speechless. Good.
"What? No, no no. I'm doing this because I love you. The prom kind and queen is just a bonus to our relationship. Your the love of my life." I smile at her and give her a kiss. I know she is lying though. I know because whenever she lies, the corner of her mouth goes up. I don't feel like fighting her right now though. Maybe she is telling the truth.
I look over at Rachel and I nearly throw up. Instead of seeing a beautiful girl dancing with her not so beautiful date, I see a laughing Rachel with a boys mouth sucking on her neck. Not just any boy, Jesse St. James.
I've had enough. I'm not letting Jesse get away with kissing my girl. I look at Quinn one last time because I want to see her face before she hates me for what I'm about to do.