Accept The Past {Completed}

Past

I don't know which day it is, I lost track off it, but the last days were amazing! We had so much fun and we did so many awesome things, it's insane! My video where I sang and Sam played guitar was successful. I got mostly positive feedback, but obviously there was a little hate too. Especially after fans from Colby saw that I was the girl that did those musicallys with him. Rumours started that we are together and some people just don't like it. I try to ignore it, but it's a little bit hard.

   It's evening as Kat and I are outside the RV just to get some fresh air. We are at some national park, I think it's the Abel Tasman National Park. Tomorrow we will go and climb in the trees like Tarzan. I'm pretty excited, because I really like to do this even though I'm a little afraid of heights.

   "So how is it going with Colby?" Kat asks curious and smiling. I smile too, but shrug.

   "I honestly have no idea." I breathe deeply and run with my fingers through my hair. "I never told you this, but like one of the first days here, as it rained so hard and you guys went out to get pizza," Kat nods frowning while following my words, "right before you entered the RV, we kissed."

 "What?! Why didn't you tell me! That's cute!" I sigh and look from her to the sky that's getting darker and darker every minute.

   "There is more. The day we shoot my video, as we ordered our food, he took my hand and held it until we started to eat. And since then were times again and again where he would take my hand as if it's nothing and he kinda acts like we are together, but as if it's a secret relationship. Do you know what I mean?" I look back to my friend and see her nod.

   "You have to talk to him about this." I sigh and nod.

   "I know, I know... I just don't know how."

 "Just take him to the side and say 'Colby, what are we?' or something like this." I nod understanding.

   "Thanks. I'm gonna do this." I smile and so does Kat.

   "We go back in?"

 "Yes." We get up from the bench we sat on and go to the RV.

I open the door and I hear a oh too familiar voice.

   "She's rich. She inherited my mothers whole money and I got nothing. She doesn't even support me, she just ran away. She got several thousand doll–"

 "You really wanna ruin my whole fucking life, don't you?" Everyone looks to me. The four guys sit around the table, my phone in the middle of it and on speaker. "Leave me the fuck alone!" With this I grab my phone, push the red receiver and run back outside. She really wants to ruin my life!

   I walk over the parking lot, ignoring Colbys shouts. He finally catches up with me and stops me. His hands on my shoulders and looking me in the eyes. My eyes are filled with tears once again.

   "What?!" I hiss even though I'm not the slightest angry at him or the others, hundred percent my lovely mother. "I'm gonna call a taxi and they get me to the next airport. I'm not gonna bother you farther." He frowns and shakes his head.

   "No, you're not. Who said something about you bothering us?"

 "Don't you hate me? My mother just told you that I have enough money to stay at a luxurious hotel in LA." He tilts his head slightly.

   "Did she tell the truth?" I look down to the ground and nod. Colby gently puts his finger under my chin to push it up. Now I look everywhere but his face. "Look me in the eyes." I sigh and do so. My brown eyes meet his gorgeous blue ones. "I'm sure you have your reasons for not telling us." I look around and spot another bench near by.

   "Can we sit down? I wanna explain it to you." He smiles one of his pretty simple smiles and nods.

I breathe deep in and out before I start. I'm gonna tell him my story now.

   "My parents got divorced when I was pretty young. I just knew them fighting when they are together, so it didn't really bother me. The reason for their divorce was my father. He cheated on my mother, she found out and finally broke up. I lived with my mother, because my fathers new wife didn't like me, but my mother soon started to drink. To drink too much. She started to yell at me for no reason and it got that far that she slaped me. Her mother, my granny, found out and since I was ten I basically lived with her. Over night I had to go back to my mother, so she wouldn't call the police and they would see the situation I had with my mother. They would have put me in a foster family. Anyways, my granny and I got close and a week before I came to LA she died. It was the worst day of my life as I knocked on her door after school and she didn't open. So I used my keys and I found her in–" I break up for a moment, because tears stream down my face and I started to sob. Colby puts his arm around my shoulder and pulls me closer to him. He strokes gently my arm up and down.

   "I found her dead in her bed. She died peacefully in her sleep. The next day I got invited to the probate the day after that and I went there. To make it short, I inherited a lot of money I didn't know my granny had and my mother got simply my grannys old, broken car. That night I slept a last time in the house I got raised up in and as I got to the apartment my mother lived in and I had a room in, it escalated. She demanded me to pay the rent and buy food and especially alcohol and as I said no. She hit me. She basically beated me up. As she tried slammed a chair across my back, I ran outside and called the cops. I bought one way tickets to LA, but decided to tell no one about my money and to not spend it on fancy hotels and stuff that I don't really need...

   You remember the day as I ran outside the RV in the rain and later that day we kissed?" I look up and see him nod with a slight smile on his lips. "That day I got a mail from my granny, as I told you. Her son, my uncle, found it and sended it to me. She basically thanked me for the time we had together and all that stuff. She told me to take care of myself and to be smart with the money I got. She also told me to not give any money to my mother unless she wants to go to a withdrawal clinic. Til now she didn't. She said how much she loves me and that I have to keep strong and that she always will be with me..." I lean my head against Colbys chest. "I miss her so much..." And in this moment a cool wind blowes gently in my face and all my sadness is suddenly gone. I sit back up and wipe away my tears. With a strong gaze I look at the brunette guy. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you." He smiles and shakes his head.

   "Don't be sorry. I understand it and I bet the others will too, if you wanna tell them." I nod thankfully. I'll do that probably.

   "Thanks for always supporting me, Colby." He smiles and then I see the others come to us. I stand up and so is Colby.

   "Everything alright?" Sam asks and I nod.

   "I have to explain to you guys what my mother meant with the stuff she said." I say with a strong and secure voice. Everyone nods and they turn around to get back to the RV. I look to Colby and he smiles. I smile too and start to follow the others. Colby walks close next to me and takes my hand. We really have to talk about this, but right now is something else more important. I'm just gonna enjoy him holding my hand.