I'm Fine.

An Average Morning

I hear a faint knock on the door as mom pushes it open to tell me that it is time to wake up for school. "Briana wake up or you'll be late for your first period class" "okay" I exclaim back at my mom. As she moves down the hall to wake up Olivia. It was the last day before spring break so hopefully this day will move as fast as possible

I slip on a pair of my jogger and a t-shirt then I make my way down the stairs to the kitchen. Mom didn't cook today so we ate cereal. "Why do you always dress like you are homeless. We go school shopping every year and you buy clothes like you are a little teen age boy". It's always something with Olivia. I just look at her plastering a smile on my face. In my house I was the Black sheep of my family. The one that never would fit in no matter what. So people (my family) would call me out for it. I skipped out on breakfast and checked my social media instead.

"Hmm"  I said staring at my phone as I see that I have 100+ messages  from my best friend Jacob. He is the kindest, sweetest person ever. We have been best friends for about 6ish years already. I don't want to ruin it by saying the words " I like you" so I just keep quiet. Keeping all those feelings squished inside me like I am packing my suit case on our way to a tropical island.

Olivia dragged me out the door to the bus stop I barely had enough time to grab my book bag. As the bus cut around the corner I grabbed my backpack from the ground and swing it around my back, and skidded onto the bus. My sister headed to the back as I set in the middle of the bus with Jacob. It was a 20 minute drive from where we lived to the school, so now time for a little more sleep.

I awoke when the bus driver hit a big speed bump that shot us in the roof of the bus. At school I never was the 'popular kid' I was always the 'outcast'.  I can't be who I want to be at school without being made fun of. And I am the total freak of my family. So sometimes I think "what is the point". I am the oddball because my sister, mom,and dad are all althetic and me I would rather take photos, or draw, and create new things. But my family likes to get out there and be the people to use the new things. With the money that my parents gave me for new sports gear. I bought a brand new camera for all that money and lots of film to go with it. They were disappointed, but it made me happy.  Amanda was waiting for Olivia when we got off the bus. The school day went on, and everything was fine untill lunch.

Yasmine walked up to me and said "your parents might as well have a son and a daughter". He friends snickered. My own sister wouldn't stand up for me. I said in return " You're the off brand of the name Jasmine". "That's it you whore" as she balled up her fists. She swung a punch and bit me square in the nose. I got one punch in before the teachers split us up. Olivia dropped her head in shame and mouthed to me " she is the most popular girl in the school"!! Luckily it was the last day of school for awhile, but still we only had to attend to D-Hall for three days after we return from spring break. Yasmines mom and dad could care less about her school life, as long as she didn't give them a bad name. But my mom and Dad are going to freak. As I finished the rest of the school day I had to go around and set up fliers for the movie night tonight to officially announce Spring break. And I knew when I told Mom and Dad I wouldn't be going.

As I got home Jacob was blowing my phone . I couldn't text him right now, not on a good conscience anyways. As I walked in to the kitchen with a guilty look on my face I explain to my parents what had happened. And all they had to say was "did you win"? And I forced a grin followed by "yes". Then they changed the conversation to "are you going to the film they are showing tonight"? I fired back "you are going to let me go" Dad followed in and said "you are a wonderful kid you never do anything wrong, this was the first. So yes, if you don't want to go you could stay here and help us clean the house!!" "Ill go"!! I said.

It was 4:00 I the afternoon right now. Jacob came over and we went over all of the details of the fight. We was also talking about tonight, and what kind if cringe worthy movie they would show tonight that ended up in "be safe".  My mom offered us a ride but she was leaving way before the movie starts to help set up so Jacob and I peacefully  declined.  But Olivia and Amanda went along so they could scope out some good seats for then and their boy friends. The movie didn't start till 8 o clock, so I let Jacob watch Netflix while I took a shower and washed today off of me.

After I got out of the shower I stood in the mirror looking at my build. I had a thin waist and medium length hair.  My body was tan. And I had a okay face. But when I look in the mirror all I see is a mindless body controlled by a soul less person. It felt numb like I wasn't supposed to be here. I got dressed and today was still on my mind. By the time I got ready we were on our way to the film. We walked because my dad had plenty of work to do and we didn't want to bother him by asking. So we took advantage of the night.