I'm Fine.

It's the end

As I woke up the next morning I felt like how you would feel after having a puppy for a few years and treating it like a baby, then he dies. Wow I wish I was that puppy. I woke up with mother standing in my room squatting next to my bed stroking my hair. I sat up in the bed and walked to the bathroom, after me going off on her I don't know why she would have anything to do with me. I brushed my hair and teeth. Then got dressed. I headed down stairs behind mom ,as she fixed me cereal I told her I was not hungry. I told her that I was meeting my best friend, and we was walking to school. But that was a lie, I was walking alone.

Every since the fight I haven't ate any food. I wasn't hungry anymore . I told my best friend to stop hanging out with me so he wouldn't get shammed for hanging around a "whore". He disagreed and kept around but I didn't tell him about the walking to school thing. As soon as I was walking by his house he came out the door,he said that he was coming to walk me to school. Deep down I could see it in his eyes that he hated for me to be made fun of and hated on. I'm just so tired, not sleepy tired just tired to a point where sleep is all I can get without wanting to die. I mope around like a zombie, only I'm not dead..... yet.

When I got to school everyone seen the depression in my eyes. They all layed off a little bit, but they couldn't disobey their master, aka Yasmine. I walked up to. And I said through my sobs " I don't know why you hate me so much". And she gasped as if she didn't know what I was talking about.  But she said "yeah I'm really sorry about that " I said back " I want to die, what the hell am I supposed to do with sorry. The video that you edited made me disgusted. And now no one likes me. So congratulations you won. Is that what you want to hear. Well after today you won't have to worry about seeing me ever again. Good bye". I turned my back and walked away. Everyone was watching but I could care less at this point.

I had a eating disorder, depressed and was practaly the " worse person on the earth". I couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror. So I found a piece of paper and a pencil. And began to write "I'm sorry for all of this, mom, dad, Olivia I love you all so much. I will never forget you. Olivia now you won't have to be made fun of like me. Tell Jacob that I love him and I always will no matter what. I can't carry on like this I feel like Im drowning, I can't move, I can't breathe. I'm numb. Thank you for this amazing life you have given me. I know this is selfish of me but.. I'm sorry. I love you".

As I ran to the bathroom just before dinner I ran the tub. And cried a little bit. Then I grabbed the Razor blade and began to cut my wrists. I bled out, it was about 20 minutes before dad busted through the door and card 911. But it was too late. They was carrying out a dead body. I felt relived. I felt like I was flying on a cloud of cotton balls. I will never be forgiven but I will always be free.

                •••TIME SKIP•••

A week late my parents was barring their daughter. Nobody wants this . Nobody asked for this. My family after the funeral sued Yasmine for murder, after discovering that she was the person that posted the video. My sister was heartbroken, and Jacob wanted to kill her. My sister wanted to kill her. My mom and Dad was pregnant again. Trying to patch a sinking boat. With one less passenger. When they found my note it was sad. It took for me dying for someone to stand up to bullies. For the teachers to listen. For anyone to listen..