Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, The next chapter will be written in Niall's Pov, Leave me your feedback.
Zayn's Pov:
Everything she said was true. Every hurtful word she spoke, I deserved to hear it. It's my fault, It's all my fault. Maura blames me, She blames me for what's happened to Niall and she has every right to. If it wasn't for me he'd be here, He'd be safe. "I wish he'd never met you, I wish you'd never come into his life, Niall's life would've been better if he'd never met you" Her words are still echoing around my mind. I'd never risk Niall's safety not for one second. I always believed I kept him far away from the dark side of my life, I believed I kept him sheltered from all this, But I didn't, If I had this wouldn't be happening. She wants us to call the police and report Niall as missing, If I could do that I would've done it by now, But I can't. All it takes is one little slip up, Someone can say the wrong thing and boom I'm arrested for things I've done, What good am I to Niall behind bars? Going to the police isin't an option.
"Zayn!" Liam yelled as he entered my apartment, I sighed before quickly sitting up in bed, Placing Niall's shirt on my lap. Louis and Liam entered my bedroom seconds later. "Zayn this was attached to your car" Liam informed me, He then held out a white envelope, I took hold of it and ripped it open.
"What's it say?" Louis asked.
"Hows it going Zayn? Sorry bit of a stupid question really isin't it? Let me ask another one, How's it feel not being able to do anything? Having so many questions but no answers? Standing back not knowing if someone you care about is safe? Is it starting to hurt Zayn? Is it starting to rip your world apart? Piece by piece are you falling apart? How could someone like him be friends with someone like you? He's such a sweet boy Zayn, So soft and gentle. So innocent and delicate, One punch could break his precious little bones. I've found that one small touch leaves a bruise, Apologizes, I meant a rough touch" Anger was boiling inside of me. "Are you enjoying my game Zayn? Are you having fun? Keep playing by my rules, If you do sweet Niall will be back before you know it, Although I can't guarantee he won't be a tiny bit broken. However if you don't play by my rules you'lll never see him again. He's fading Zayn, Best part? There's nothing you can do about it" I finished reading the letter and my emotions were overflowing, I grabbed hold of the glass beside my bed and threw it against the wall, It shattered instantly.
"Zayn you can't do that, This is exactly what he wants" Liam exclaimed.
"You don't think I know that? I know exactly what the sick cunt wants! He wants me to suffer! And he's doing it he's making me suffer! I'm the one he wants, I'm the one who hurt this guy, Yet Niall's suffering because of it!" I spat. "Well not anymore" I said, I then climbed out of bed.
"What'd you mean?" Liam asked.
"Call the boys get them to start spreading the word, It's my life in exchange for Niall's" I stated.
"What? Zayn he won't fall for that" Louis exclaimed.
"He dosen't have to fall for anything it's true, I'll give my life for Niall's" I informed them.
"Zayn you can't do that" Louis chocked out.
"What else can I do Louis? Sit here and wonder if he's ok? If he's even alive? Put him through unbearable pain? I can't do that to him Louis, I love him" I stated, Liam and Louis eyes widened. "I love him like a brother alright, I can't sit back and watch him suffer" I then walked out the room leaving Louis and Liam shocked.
I slowly breathed out the smoke from inside my lungs, I watched closely as the white smoke escaped my lips then faded moments later. The sky was grey and dull, Just like my mood. The boys don't understand, The confusion that was plastered all over there faces proved that to me. I can't do nothing anymore, I can't wake up each day and not know where he is, If he's safe, If he's even still breathing. This person wants me not Niall me, And if giving myself to them means Niall goes free, Then I'll do it.
"Zayn" I sighed when I heard Louis voice.
"Don't start alright, I'm not in the mood for a fight with you" I said.
"I haven't come here to fight, I haven't even come as your gang member, I'm here as your friend" Louis stated before sitting down beside me, I looked over at him. "Do you really think this guys gonna hand back Niall because your giving yourself up?" Louis asked, I shrugged my shoulders.
"I don't know Louis, I don't know anything. All I know is this guy is fucked up in the head and Niall's paying for something I did, He dosen't deserve this he never did" I exclaimed.
"Zayn you said so yourself this guys fucked up, What if he dosen't accept the swap?" Louis questioned.
"And what if he does? I can't take the risk Louis, I can't leave Niall any longer, I can't do that to him" I chocked out, Louis sighed.
"It's alright you know, To cry. You don't have to hide things from me Zayn, I'm one of your bestfriends, I know better then anybody" Louis said, I looked at him with confused eyes.
"You know what?" I asked.
"That when you said you loved Niall you didn't mean as a brother" Louis replied, I looked down.
"Yeah I did" I mumbled, Louis shook his head.
"No you didn't. You love me, Haz, Li, Josh, All the boys like a brother but you love Niall like something more. Since he's been gone you've been falling apart, Don't think I can't see because I can. Your not sleeping, Your barely eating, At night you lay awake holding his shirt that you sprayed with his aftershave. Why can't you just admit that you love him?" Louis asked, Tears filled my eyes.
"I can't" I chocked out. "How Louis? How am I supposed to admit that he's all I ever think about? That I'd be anything he wanted me to be. All the power and money in this world mean nothing to me if he's not with me. How am I supposed to admit that I'm madly inlove with him? And I dunno what I'll do if I lose him" I exclaimed. "I'm scared Louis, I've never been so scared in my life. Without him this world it's just another thing. I love him Louis, I love Niall, I've always loved him but I never told him because I'm not good enough for him, I'll never be good enough"
"That's not true" Louis stated.
"What kinda person do you know lets the person they love suffer?" I questioned.
"This isin't your fault, Zayn you are good enough for Niall. Being good enough for someone isin't about what you can give them, It's about how much you love them, And what you'd do to keep them safe" I sighed. "We'll find Niall, I promise Zayn and when we do find him he won't be hurt" Louis assured me.
"Promise me something?" I asked, Louis nodded.
"Anything" He replied.
"Promise me if things don't work out how we want them to, If we find out where Niall is and we go there, You make sure you get him out alive, And you make sure nobody ever hurts him again" I stated.
"I won't have to because you'll be there to do all that"
"Just promise me Louis" I exclaimed, Louis slowly nodded his head.
"I promise" Louis stated. I don't know what's gonna happen, I don't know what this guy wants from me. All I know is if I have to, I'll give my life for Niall's and I won't hesitate to do it.
