Im so so sorry I haven't updated in ages! I have been really busy with exams and revision and homework and all that lovely school stuff...*Please note the sarcasm*
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Jai's P.O.V
So as I left his house I thought what is the thing that's going to make it all better? I should of been there to protect her and I didn't! Its all my fault, if she wasn't friends with me none of this would of happened and she wouldn't of tried to harm herself. So what shall I do? Ill just drown away my sins with a couple of bottles of vodka...yes that'll do the trick. Its the thing that always helps me.
I drove to the nearest shop and I went into it. "2 bottles of vodka please" the woman looked at me funny and probably thought I was an alcoholic especially the way I am looking at the moment.
"Are you sure you want that sir?" The woman at the counter asked me.
"Do I need to go to another shop? All I want is some god dam vodka!!" I started to raise my voice. But she got some vodka from the shelf and passed it to me. I then paid and got out of the shop and drove back to my house.
Luckily no one was in when I got there so I had the house to myself. I ran into my room and just started to drink the vodka straight out of the bottle.
This is all my fault and I need to punish myself. I don't deserve to have a friend like Beth.
I kept repeating this over and over again until most of the vodka had gone. "JAI!! JAI!!" I could hear someone shouting that's when I realised it was Beth.
"Oh Jai, you didn't do anything stupid did you?" She said as she walked into my room.
"Nopeee but I showed that little bastard what its like to feel hurt." I slurred this sentence because i'm now starting to feel really drunk.
"Are you drunk?" Beth asked me showing concern, anger, upset, scared in her voice.
"Nooooooppppeeeeee. Just I little bit tipsy" I said and I looked up at her gave her a massive cheesy grin.
"Jai you have to stop turning to the drink when you're upset" She said to me crouching down next to me.
Why did she have to come in and see me like this? She hates seeing me like this. I'm such an idiot!
"Jai come here" She opened her arms and she was now sat on my bed. I walked over, climbed on the bed and snuggled close to Beth. I had my head buried into her chest. She tried to get comfortable, so I put my head onto her lap and led down next to her.
We stayed like this for a very long time and Beth was trying to calm me down by stroking my hair and whispering things into my ear. My life is pretty messed up, this has happened two nights in a row now and I feel like a screw up.
"Jai, Just promise me one thing. Stop going to the bottle when you're upset, just come to me. Ii don't care what time it is, just do it. Promise me that one thing"
"I promise Beth"
