Beautiful People Beautiful Problems ↠ zarry

For Zayn

I watched you hold her hand that day
I heard you say those words
I felt you push me far away
But maybe I did first

I tried to say how sorry I was
I tried to make it right
You didn't care, you didn't pause
You were putting up a fight

Now, I see what I did wrong
What I made of us
Now we're stuck singing these songs
Making such a fuss

I took for granted what we had
I thought it was a fling
Now your silence drives me mad
And all I do is sing

Sing to you is what I'll do until you come right back
As a friend, is good enough
You gave me what I lack

You thought you were in love with her
You marked your arm with devotion
It wasn't until with liquor we were
You told me I made you feel emotion

Emotions that she couldn't touch,
But you thought that you could feel
You gave each other ever so much
But it was never real

Your art means the world to you
It shows such journey
I'm represented there too
The memories how they burn me

You said you won't cover the scars
You'll let them bleed free
But yet you went and covered your star
And still let me be

I couldn't speak about you after you left
It was like acid on my tongue
Understand we were all bereft
We had all been stung

I won't stay mad, never more again, it was foolish of me to be
It wasn't your fault, neither mine
Zayn, I still love you, can't you see

But now we've grown from our past
Learnt the ins-and-outs of life
Found that perfection is a farce
And so we buried the strife 

I watched her hold your hand that day
I heard her say those words
And though hurt it may
I realise that now you're free as a bird

I love you, Zayn, I always will
No matter what may come and change
Even when taking separate paths
Stay the same will be our lanes

You're a part of me and I of you so,
No matter how far our hearts shall roam
I know that you will always be there for me
To make it feel like home

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It's funny when you hear the term 'it's complicated' - love being the 'it'... funny because love is one of the most pure things we can experience. So then, what's complicated?
"It's where you don't know where you stand in someone life; it's when you're hanging in dead air and knowing that you can be thrown off anytime; it's when you're like more than friends - but not really, and it's like you're lovers when you're really not. Sometimes you would want to wish to have never met that person at all but at the back of your mind you're thankful that you have.

That's complicated." - unknown

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Thanks to everyone for reading/voting for any of the books from the series, you're all so peachy x
There is a 4th part of the lonely hearts club and it's a one shot about Zayn showing up to the Dunkirk premiere that I wrote a while back for a friend if anyone is interested, it's part of my 'With Love, Zourry' book