it's starting to scare me how much i actually care about you. this is bad. you see, i had this thing going for me where i either get people who i have no intention of going anywhere except the back of the school with to fall for me or i go for people who are entirely out of my league so it's no surprise when i get let down. it was a simple system. you fucked it up. i seriously thought i was being more careful. you weren't supposed to be friends with me. you were supposed to be someone i saw in the corner of my eye from time to time and never asked about. but i should know better than most that life never makes anything easy. i think the worst part of it all is i can't even tell you about it because i'm afraid of you not feeling the same, but even more afraid that you do and then i'll end up falling and eventually failing with you. i don't want you to be another failed attempt at love or what i think love is. and even though you're such a fucking asshole and i probably irritate you even more than most people irritate you, i believe there's a reason we exist in the same space.
