Gone

"Why do everything I have needs be gone?"

That's my biggest question to myself. Why? All of them are just temporary. Nothing's permanent.

Maegan Scott is my name. Living in LA with nothing. Suicidal at the age of 16. Hoping that I will get through these things. Helping myself. Trying hard to accept things in my fucked up life. Sometimes I asked myself, why do I need to live if I was just going to die? Why do I need to live this life that's full of shits? But I said to myself, I need to live for the people I love though I know that I only exist to them when they need something, if they need someone, and that's my point. I need to live for them when they needed someone on their rough times or anytime. But are they here for me when I needed them?

I have my friends and family, but I feel like I was alone. I'm just a teenage girl that needs happiness in life. A teenage girl that needs love, but I guess I will never have it or feel it. How will I give myself happiness and love if I was alone?

Happiness and love are all I wanted, simple things yet hard to get.

Will I ever got them back? The people that I lost? Everything that I lost? Will I ever feel the happiness in life? Will I ever meet people that truly loves me and never leave?

Will I ever get through this? When will I accept that I am alone?

So many questions that I can't answer to myself. But there's this biggest question.

Why do everything I have needs be gone?