It's Not Easy

Chapter One - Just Chilling With My Nonexistent Friends

Chapter One - Just Chilling With My Nonexistent Friends

10 years ago...

I am as what they say the outcast, the freak, whatever you call it. I sit near the dumps, I am a nerd, I have no fashion sense. I just don't fit in.

"Move," demanded Edward Haynes as he shoves me.

You might be asking why is it that a guy is being mean. I thought it's just girls who did that? Well, not for Edward Football Quarterback Most Popular Guy In School Haynes. His attitude is just downright evil and he doesn't care.

I am a victim of his bullying for four years now. Starting when I was a freshman up until now, senior year. You might think that after four years, I would be immune but, no I'm still as pathetic as my younger self four years back.

"I..u-mm.." I stuttered.

"Cat got your tongue little Evette?" Edward said while smirking it me. He gave me one last look of pity and then walked away as if nothing happened.

I breathe out a sigh of relief when he was gone.

I take a look at my watch and see that I'm already five minutes late for homeroom. I quickly put all of my books inside my back because they fell when Edward shoved me and ran towards the classroom. Mr. Collins gave me a disapproving look but let me sit because he knows that I didn't do it on purpose.

"I'm sorry sir," I muttered too low for Mr. Collins to hear.

I sit down and think of the things that will happen to me courtesy of Edward Haynes as the day was just getting started.

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I look out the window towards the setting sun while I'm eating my favorite flavor of ice cream, caramel. It's currently Saturday and I am more than happy that I get to hang out and just chill with my friends.

I start to cry.

Why? Because I don't have friends. First day of High School I was already a freak. Nobody even bothered to get to know me. I mean I have a lot of talents, I can play guitar, I'm smart, I'm good at almost anything but they didn't bother.

They thought that just because of my ultra mega super big glasses I would be a weirdo. That's why I can't wait to get out of this hell hole of a town. 

I put down the tub of ice cream and hug Mr. Jenkins, my cute little blue teddy bear as my tears silently fall down my cheeks.

"Evette, dinner's ready!" shouted Mom.

I wipe my tears and shout back, "I'm coming Mom!"

I don't have a dad. He left when I was two years old. I don't remember him anymore and it sucks. Mom is the only one that I have. She is my only friend, she is the one who supports me. My life may look like a big mess but with Mom, it never is for me.

"What took you so long, sweetie?" she asked concerned.

"Um, nothing mom I was just eating ice cream," I cover my mouth shocked and I just smiled cheekily at Mom.

She just shook her head trying to look disappointed but I can see her mouth twitching up a bit. Dinner was good. Mom and I talked about different things. While eating, we like to talk about the recent things that happen to the world and we try to stray away from talking about Dad and me, about school.

"Good night sweety, see you tomorrow morning! my mom called after me as I started heading back to my room.

"Good night, Mom. I love you," I replied as I closed the door to my room.

I let out a smile.

I'm just happy that everything is okay well, except for Edward Haynes bullying me at school. Everything is just peachy for me and I guess I'm contented with that.

I lie down in my bed thinking about what I am going to be in the future. I think I want to be a businesswoman with the pencil skirts and that jazz, I don't know. I'm not really sure. I close my eyes and drift off into a dream full of unicorns, rainbows, and ice cream.