Behind That Smile

Chapter 16

Gee Gee

So I'm sitting in my room talking to Princeton about my mom. She tries to talk to me but I ignore her. I mean she basically ignored me for 11 years for not being in my life.

"I think you should talk to her because if you don't then its not solving any thing but making it worse." Prince said.

"But Jacob she just left-." He cut me off.

"Talk to her." He stood up. I sighed and walked downstairs and my mom was sitting on the couch with my dad.

"Um mom can we talk?" I asked she nodded and we went to the backyard. I decided to sit by the pool and put my feet in and so did my mom.

"So what's on your mind?" She asked. I sighed.

"I just wanna get everything off my chest." I said and she nodded.

"I'm hurt, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm upset, and everything else. You left us you left me and didn't look back. You missed almost all the important things in my life. You missed my first fight. My first time killing someone. My first time making a drop. Some of my graduations. My awards for getting straight A's and most talented. You was supposed to be the first person I told when I started my period. When I had my first kiss. My first boyfriend. My first time having sex. You was supposed to be there when I had my boy problems. You was supposed to be there and give me advice when I lost my virginity. You was supposed to be there when I cried my eyes out for numerous reasons. You was supposed to be there when I got my heart broken multiple times. You was supposed to be there when I almost lost my life multiple times. But you wasn't you just left me. Don't you know how I feel." I had tears running down my face non stop. I was crushed and I couldn't hold back anymore. I was crying to the point I couldn't see anymore because of the tears I just saw a blur.

"Look I'm sorry baby girl I left for a reason and one day you will understand why. I love you so much and I hate to see my beautiful princess cry ok." My mom said. We both stood up and she hugged me even though I felt a bit weak.

"I love you mommy." I said softly.

"I love you too baby girl." She said kissing my forehead.

*4 weeks later*

"MOM WHAT THE HELL!" I yelled at my mom.

"NO DAUGHTER OF MINE IS GOING TO SMOKE AND DRINK!" She yelled in my face.

"BRO WHAT THE FUCK YOU CANT JUST POP BACK IN MY LIFE AND CONTROL ME. I'VE BEEN SMOKING AND DRINKIN SINCE I WAS LIKE 11 YEARS OLD. I DO WHATEVER I WANT AND I CONTROL MYSELF AND I DONT CARE IF YOUR MY MOM!" I yelled back. I was beyond mad.

"LITTLE GIRL YOU AINT GONE TALK TO ME LIKE YOU CRAZY I WOULD BEAT YO ASS!"  She yelled back.

"NEWS FLASH I AM CRAZY. ALL BECAUSE OF YOU ALL BECAUSE I HAVE TO LIVE THIS GOT DAMN LIFE. I HAVE TO WALK AROUND WITH SOME FAKE ASS SMILE WHILE EVERYONE IS THINKING MY LIFE IS PERFECT. SO YOU HAVE NO FUCKING RIGHT TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I WAS FINE LIVING MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU!" I said with tears running down my face as I walk out the house slamming the door and getting in my car.

Ever since I had that talk with my mom she's just been trying to watch my every move. We've been arguing for the past 4 weeks. The first week she walked in on me and Mateo kissing and flipped over that saying we don't need to be having sex when I told her I'm not a virgin. She doesn't even live with me but she's constantly over me and the girls house. Her and my dad bought the house next to my brothers so they could be "close" to us. The second week she was mad because I came home hella late. I was out making late night drops and shit. The third week I got arrested and she went crazy. Then she just found out I was smoking drinking and all that other stuff.

I get that she's my mom but for god's sake I'm not 4. I've basically lived my whole teenage life without her so what's the point of her tripin now. I don't even care if she leaves me again.

I got back home and went straight to the backyard and stared at my reflection in the pool. Even though I could barely see, I've been crying non stop these past 4 weeks. I'm tired of it I'm even crying now. Once again I'm crying to the point I can't see anymore. I felt dizzy and I had a major headache then I felt my body fall straight into the pool and a whole bunch of water went inside me as I past out.

Mateo

I watched as Ang get out her car and go straight to the pool. She stood there for a while just staring at her reflection and crying. Then she fell in the pool. I jumped up so fast and ran to the pool jumping in and grabbing her. What the fuck can I ever be there for her when she's hurting like damn. I tried to do as much as I could then I ran to my car speeding to the hospital.

I hope she will be ok my baby can't leave me. She became officially mine not to long ago. I can't lose her now. I got out the car running inside. The nurse looked and seen how she was wet and nearly looked dead and got her a doctor right away. As I waited I called everyone since I just ran out the house. Jesus please let her be ok.