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"Okay, so what's going on with you?"

Taehyung had parked the car at some random street. No people were out since it was the middle of the night, once in a while a car passed by, but nothing else. The ride had been quiet, but not awkward. Jungkook was nervous, and Taehyung wasn't sure of what to feel. Should he be mad? Sad? Disappointed? He didn't know. It was a mixture of everything, but he just really wanted to hear Jungkook out.

"Nothing's going on with me," the younger's words were quiet, and Taehyung couldn't help but hit the steering wheel in annoyance. "Stop saying that!" The elder's angry voice along with the hit on the steering wheel made Jungkook flinch, but Taehyung didn't seem to notice. "You promised to tell me, now fucking spill it."

Okay, well, Jungkook was now sure that Taehyung was angry, or at least annoyed as hell.

"Did I do anything? Because it really fucking seems like it," Taehyung muttered as he crossed his arms over his chest, head turning to the right to look at Jungkook. The younger was unsure, where would he start? What was the best thing to say?

"You know about my...uh, my brother being in the hospital. Uhm, he and my dad have been fighting a lot lately, over the phone. It has been very..." Jungkook had no idea what words to use. How could he describe it properly? "Stressful. I never get to know why they are fighting, and whenever I ask my dad just gets mad at me and yells at me. That's why I wanted you to pick me up," Jungkook closed his eyes a few seconds, then opened them again. As if to regain some energy to continue talking. "Do you remember when you told me about Hoseok thinking we were a real couple and all that?"

Taehyung nodded, he was listening carefully. Still looking at Jungkook, he really wanted the younger to look at him too, but he wouldn't force him.

"And you said that you never take things seriously," Jungkook now decided to look up and face Taehyung. He felt like breaking down, honestly, not being used to spill all his thoughts and worries out like this. "Because when you said that I immediately thought of us. Maybe it was just because of everything else going on, but did you ever take us two seriously?" Tears wanted to come out of Jungkook's eyes, but he refused, just a little bit more. "And I just felt worthless. This felt worthless. I thought I had been able to find someone who actually liked me, and not only used me because they were bored," Jungkook tried his best to hold his tears in, but he never thought he'd get so emotional over this. "You joked about us dating, and about being together, I thought it was fun until you said you didn't take things seriously. Maybe my mind went too far, but I just got disappointed," as a tear fell out of his eye and started to roll down his cheek, Jungkook met Taehyung's eyes. "Maybe you didn't mean it like that, but whether you meant it or not, I just..." He looked down again, he closed his eyes and felt more tears burn, some managing to stream down his cheeks. He looked up again, and knew he looked like a mess. Crying wasn't anything he did often, but all this had probably been too much for him.

"I like you, Taehyung. I really fucking like you, and maybe that's why I took your words the wrong way, or maybe I was correct. But I like you, hell, maybe I'm even in love with you," Jungkook didn't bother to stop his tears. He looked at Taehyung's reaction, and couldn't tell if it was good or not. "Maybe I can't even be in love with someone after just two months of knowing them, but I think I'm in love with you and I feel so stupid for believing we were something when we weren't and–" Jungkook's voice cracked slightly, his tears stopping him from continuing. Taehyung felt like crying as well. Not because of his own feelings, but because he saw Jungkook like this. It hurt. And he felt horrible. Jungkook had really taken his words the wrong way, but Taehyung had no idea the younger felt like that. In love with him? How could someone be in love with him?

"I'm sorry," Taehyung said. "I...I didn't mean it that way, Jungkook," his voice wasn't stable either, and he didn't really know what to say. "Are you...are you really in love with me?"

"I think so," Jungkook whispered, refusing to look up. Now he felt ashamed, he was sure of it. He felt like he had embarrassed himself for good, maybe he should've just kept quiet and let Taehyung be mad at him for not telling him everything. "I-I-Maybe I should've just been quiet. S-sorry-" Jungkook suddenly felt Taehyung grab his chin, making him look up and shut up at the same time.

"I think I'm in love with you too," Taehyung's words surprised them both, but what happened next only surprised Jungkook. He saw tears in Taehyung's eyes, but didn't get the chance to fully react to what the older had said, or ask why he was crying. Because within the two upcoming seconds, his eyes automatically closed as a pair of lips met his own.

Desperate. That was what Jungkook described it with. He didn't fully realise that they were really kissing, but he felt the desperation in the kiss. Mixed with their salty tears. It sounded cheesy, but this only made more tears fall from Jungkook's eyes. They were freaking kissing each other, and everything had happened within less than ten minutes.

The younger suddenly widened his eyes and pulled away quickly. "Wh-what the hell are you doing?" His hand was on Taehyung's chest, keeping their distance from each other. Taehyung just shrugged. "Ah well..." The older scratched the back of his head unsurely. "I guess I'm kissing you since we apparently are in love with each other."

Taehyung's words were so simple, and Jungkook raised an eyebrow at the calmness in the elder's voice. It was as if their previous feelings and worries were completely gone after the kiss.

Then realisation suddenly hit Jungkook.

"Holy shit, we kissed," he blurted out. Taehyung just smiled. He reached out and wiped a few tears away from Jungkook's cheeks, while the younger was still in shock. "We...we kissed."

A small laugh left Taehyung's lips. "Wanna do it again?" Jungkook opened his mouth to say something. He wasn't sure if he was going to protest or go along with it, but Taehyung kissed him before he even got to say anything.

Jungkook completely forgot about everything that had been bothering him, just for a while. And he probably had to speak more with Taehyung about all this the next day, but he was still in shock.

And was even more shocked as the second round of realisation hit him.

"Did we just kiss a second time?!"

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i'm c r i n g i n g
btw, 12k? i should be thankful but i'm just embarrassed tbh. this is so bad yet people read it...thank you