I have always heard in my heard in my head my brother wouldn't do. My grandma thought nothing of it but it haunted me every day. The words made me be something I'm not the person I'll never amount to because they never liked the real me. I'm to emotional they say I'll never make it in the real world. I 'm too emotional they say I'll never make it in the real world. I never understood how they all doubt me unless I'm doing good making money and everything else. I keep telling myself to not be so emotional I can't joke around without my brother feeling like I'm attacking him. I built this persona who tries to do the best I can but it never did any good. They say I'll never leave this place but said, "You can be anything you want to be." what lies just so I don't have to deal with the truth. They don't get me for who I really am much less my favorite color. I had when I cry so I don't seem like a emotional girl. I would look in the mirror and think this is a disaster I'm broken but I am me. I'm strong but not that strong everyone wants me to do what they never what I want. The way it seems to me is no one wants me to be successful in there eyes my brother does no wrong. Which to this day those words your brother wouldn't do this still haunt me but every day is a step forward.
