100 letters // pjm + myg

Letter 1

Letter 1 // 'min yoonji?'

"Hi. I was wondering if you had the uh calculus homework that we were given?"

"Sorry. I don't study calculus." Jimin smiled up at the curious mint haired boy. "I'm in your English class." He gave a nervous chuckle.

"Oh. I'm sorry. I mean the homework for English class?" The mint haired boy questioned- his voice slightly raising. His hand scratched the back of his neck as he nervously smiled. Jimin thought it was a cute thing to do.

"We didn't get any." Jimin said politely to the strange boy in front of him. Curious, Jimin continued. "I'm sorry I didn't catch your name. I'm Park Jimin." He extended his hand out for the man in front of him to shake.

"Min Yoongi." He mumbled- blushing. He took Jimin hand.

"Well hello, Min Yoonji. Nice to meet you."

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4th September 2013

Dear Jimin,

Almost a month ago now, I first approached you. Almost a year ago now, I first noticed you. The guy who sat two seats away from me, on the right, one row in front of me in English class. I didn't really pay attention in class nor did I ever really go but suddenly attending class to study English was the most important thing to do when you transferred. I found you interesting. You were cute when your eyes would disappear whenever you smiled or laughed. You were cute when you would lean over to Taehyung and whisper between yourself just because you were both confused. You were cute when you completely ignore the teachers instructions just because she had won the debate you and her took part in previously. And you intrigued me. Not only momentarily like others. For longer than usual. You were different and with many months of Namjoon teasing and convincing me, I had finally admitted to myself that I liked you- as in I had a small crush on you- which for me is something new. I never really had anyone stick around so I normally never take interest in anyone for more than a month or two. The only people, who actually talk to me and care for me as friends, are Namjoon and Seokjin. Namjoon and I have been together since we were little. Seokjin only stays around because of Namjoon. And because of that I've never really felt the need to have a relationship with someone unless we were having sex. But with you- it's different- I want to see you smile in the mornings when I wake and I want to make you laugh in the presence of others and I want to cuddle upto you on cold winters nights and hold your hands while walking through the park and I want to spoil you with too many gifts regardless of your complaints against the idea. And in all honesty it frightens me that I could think of such things so vividly. Such things that I never thought of before and never planned on thinking about in the future.

I don't really know why I'm writing this addressed to you but I guess it's because you so openly accepted me as a friend. You were so quick to accept me in your life. Even though I was a complete and utter idiot the day we first spoke. I approached you at first with the intention to ask you out- yet again Namjoons idea. But I remember how nervous I was when walking up to you. I was unsure of your reaction and anxiety kicked in when I imagined you being disgusted maybe by the fact that a guy was asking you out or maybe just because it was me asking you. Fear took over me as I imagined you rejecting me and possibly telling me you were already in a relationship with Taehyung as many people had speculated. My heart skipped a beat at the thought of you actually saying yes because what would I do next- I never really expected to get that far- and I didn't in the end, unsurprisingly.