The day Jay and I started dating meant I signed up for the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Today was the ugly. Maybe he was just tired or stressed but it seems liked the more i tried to have a conversation with him the more he pushed me away. I finally decided to speak up. I set down my dishes in the sink and I turned to him
"Jay what's wrong why are you being so cold?" he didn't really answer me besides shrugging his shoulders.
With a deep sigh I walked over and sat right next to him.
"Jay, can you tell me please tell me what's wrong?" something in him just snapped because when he looked at me he wasn't the Jay I fell for, the look he had was pure anger.
"Fuck Karla! Why are you being so fucking annoying I said I was O fucking K!" he stood up so quickly his chair hit the wall behind him leaving a small hole.
"J-Jay baby relax I-I'm sorry.." that's all that would come out of my mouth and he just kept yelling.
"You bugged me all fucking day to do something with you! You always fucking ask me to take you somewhere or buy you something! You're a gold digger just like every other girl i've been with!".
He might as well have slapped me in the face because with those words it felt like he did. I couldn't stop the tears from falling down my face and the breaking/sharp pain in my chest.
"Fuck you Park Jaebeom!" I walked to our bedroom and slammed the door shut, locking it behind me. I hear the front door slam shut. I slid down the door and held my knees close to my chest and cried for what seemed like hours. It was late so I just put on one of Jay's T-shirts and rid myself of my jeans and crawled under the covers and cried myself to sleep.
I woke to the sound of Kiseok's "Simon Dominic" playing and I couldn't help but groan. The last thing I need was for one of HIS friends to yell at me too but I answered anyway. If I couldn't ignore someone it would be Kiseok.
"hey seok." i was basically holding back sobs at this point.
"What the fuck happened last night Jay showed up to my house really fucking drunk I don't even know how he made it." he let out a huge sigh and I couldn't hold back my tears anymore
"I-I can't explain over the phone can we meet somewhere?"
"Meet me and Loco at the office in 20 minutes." without saying anything he just hung up I wasn't ready to face them who knows what Jay told them! What I did know was that I wasn't golddigger I love Jay more than anyone on this earth, whether he has money or not I love him..I always will damnit!
Since I wasn't going to meet Jay I didn't feel the need to dress up but the thought of him showing up made me want look better than I did. I wanted to look stronger. So I did. I put on some ripped jeans, timberlands, white shirt, a black sweater, and a black beanie with sunglasses. I decided to put on a little make-up to hide the puffiness around my eyes. I left grabbing my purse and keys, and I quickly got in the car and headed towards the AOMG office.
As I pulled up to the builidng I noticed there were a good amount of fans outside so I assumed the boys had just walked in.
"Great" I thought to myself "Just what I needed right now."
I pulled on my beanie and facemask that I always kept in the car for these moments (boy did they happen often) and texted Kiseok and Loco in our group chat.
"Fans are outside meet me at the door no way I'm I going throught all that alone!"
Kiseok: "We are on our way."
Loco: "You're superheros are on the way Maisie!"
I just rolled my eyes, with a grin, and waited until I saw them at the door before I took a deep breath and got out of my car. So many fangirls were taking photos and mumbling to each other "who is she" "i don't know I can't see her face well maybe she is one of their girlfriends!" by the looks of it Kiseok and Loco heard that too because within seconds they had their arms around me covering my face and getting in the way of their cameras until we made it in the building.
"Well that never gets any easier does it." I just shook my head and chuckled before taking off my mask and properly greeting the boys.
"Nope I always think I'm going to die of suffication every time I walk to the door!" as sad as I was I could help but burst out laughing at Loco.
"uh I don't think that's how dying of suffication works man, especially when the fans don't even reach your neck." Kiseok pulled down Loco's cap to cover his eyes as he sat down
"So what happened, Jay won't be here for another 20 minutes so you have some time." Before I could get a word in someone spoke behind me.
"Yeah then you can come hide in my offices as always." I turned around and gasped. I quickly stood up turning around to see Seong-hwa standing there rolling his eyes "GRAY!!" I basically jumped over the couch and ran up to hug him. Gray is my best friend it was because of him that I met Jay and the rest of AOMG if I could count on anyone it was him. He was only a few years older than me but he always treated me like I was his baby sister.
"Hey kiddo it's been a while since I've seen you" I scoffed and playfully pushed him.
"what do you mean kid?! and yeah because SOMEONE decided to go on tour without telling me!!!" he just laughed and walked around to sit on the couch and I followed.
"So care to explain what this secret meeting without Jay is about?" I sighed and looked down at the floor and began to explain
"He was quiet all throughout the day, so I asked what was wrong but he kept saying nothing. So I asked again and then.....he just snapped at me...." I could feel the tears forming in my eyes again so I looked away from everyone not being able to look them in the eyes. "Then he just started yelling at me and calling me annoying and...and a golddigger. He left a small hole in the dining room from how hard he pushed back the chair."
No one said anything until I saw Loco looking up and Gray quickly standing up and leaving behind me.
"uh Karla... you might want to go hide in my studio." Loco quickly got up and ran behind me with Kiseok following him. I turned around and saw Gray slamming Jay against the wall until Jay pushed him off and just got ontop and started punching him. I didn't want to watch seeing Jay act that way, it was like he turned into a monster overnight so I ran and hid in Loco's dark studio sitting against the wall with my knees to my chest.
