I could still hear the yelling although whatever they were saying was inaudible.
I got up and turned on Loco's laptop. I needed to let it out and if there was one thing I learned from the boys was music was the best way.
Pulling out my phone I texted Isabel to email the lyrics to the song she and I were working along with an audiofile of the beat Gray produced thinking it was for her solo project.
No one in the AOMG crew knew that isabel and I would work on songs together, no one knew I could sing and rap... not even Gray. I was so grateful she kept it a secret from everyone. I was always too shy to show my talents.
Once the music started I got so lost in practicing my rap section of the song that I didn't hear Loco walk in. Once the song ended I heard him clapping behind me and I gaspped as I jumped out of the chair.
"For goodness sake Loco you scared the hell outta me!"
he just laughed and sat down looking over the lyrics frowning then smiling again.
He finally looks up at me and says "jay and gray are cooling off right now, but maisie you're really good at rapping you know. Does Jay know that you can rap or that you've been working with Isabel?"
I just shook my head too embarrassed and sad to actually speak, he chuckled " Why did you keep that talent a secret from all of us? i'm kind of jealous that Isabel knew before me"
I laughed and sat down on his couch "I compare myself to how good you guys are a lot and I knew if I told any of you that I rapped with Hoody you would ask to hear and I wasn't ready for that. I was going to perform it with her at the upcoming show as a surprise to all of you but I guess cat's out of the bag."
He replayed the track and stood up unlocking the soundbooth "Go ahead and practice properly I'll help you since Hoody isn't here yet" I just nodded and walked in closing the door putting the headphones on.
What I didn't notice was Loco texting the boys and even Jay to quietly come in his studio and watch me. He gave me a thumbs up before he dimmed the lights on his side and it wasn't long before I heared isabels voice coming through the headphones. The song was a love song so the lyrics I wrote were all secretly directed at Jay, Isabel knew but the fans didn't which made my happy. I finally nailed my lyrics and I was so excited to tell Isabel so once the song ended I quickly walked out of the soundbooth "Loco I finally got m-" I just stood there shocked in silence as I looked back at four smiling men in front of me.
I grabbed my phone and pushed passed everyone and locked myself in Jay's office as I dialed Isabel.
"Hey Lyssa what's up I just landed?" she was so cheerful and I felt bad for calling
"I'm sorry for bothering you but all the boys just found out about our song."
"What oh my god how?!" I sighed and proceed to tell her everything from me and Jay fighting to how Loco caught me practicing to now.
"He was smiling though so that's good right?
That was a mean thing for Loco to do I'll talk to him when I get to the studio i'm on my way"
"I don't know I ran out before anyone could say anything but ok see you when you get here."
It took all the courage in the world for me to get up and leave Jay's office. When I didn't hear any talking I figured they were still in Loco's studio so I tried to quickly make my way down the hall so I could leave to the cafe across the street. As soon as I made it to the front door I realized I left my purse in the stuido.
"Fuck my life" I groaned to myself and decided to just suck it up and go get it until I heard that familiar voice behind me "I brought your purse into my studio come in so we can talk." I was about to cry again but i didn't want to let him see me that way so I blinked back my tears and walked into Jay's studio.
"If you brought me in here to yell at me some more please just save it. I'm grabbing my purse so I can pay for my OWN food." he just sighed and stood in front of the door so I couldn't leave.
"Please Alyssa just let me talk." he walked towards me and without even thinking I backed up quickly I didn't even notice but by the look on his face he did.
"Please don't be scared of me I know I was scary but I would never hurt you I have no exuse for how I acted besides me just being stressed.
" I didn't know what to say to him I had never seen him act that way.
"Y-you called me names jay!!! H-how could you?! I thought we loved each other. Lovers don't do that jay! Am I not pretty enough? Am I just not enough?! Tell me what please! I need to know.." I couldn't help but just sit down and begin crying I've held it in all day and finally everything was coming out.
Without a word he sat next to me and just held me "Maisie you're gorgeous, you're more than enough I love you so much. Please don't ever doubt my love for you, I will announce it to the whole world if I have to. I have no excuse for how I acted. I could make music, I was so stressed and I took it out on you and for that I'm sorry with all my heart. I don't want to loose you. You're my everything and I need you in my life. Babe tell me what I need to do for you to believe me."
