to kristian, who says his friends are more important right now
honestly I think that's fucking bullshit because you don't have any classes with these so called friends yet you have almost all of them with me and somehow you never seem to use that to your advantage. I've fucking liked you for 8 MONTHS now and I don't know if I want to keep on trying to get someone who doesn't make an effort to talk to me. I wish it were easy for me to talk to you, but it just isn't. I overthink everything when I'm around you, from the way I sit, to my facial expressions, to the way I talk. I really wish I was the one for you but it just doesn't seem to be working out. and the truth is I can't even make you change because I have no power over you. we don't have a relationship past being friends and because of that I can't judge you. if you wanna spend all your time with your friends, I can't say shit because I am not in a position to do that. i respect that you want to stay close with your friends, but just know that I thought I was one of your friends, but obviously that's not the case. I hope that I have it made your life any worse by sharing my feelings, and I hope that one day (whether it be me or someone else) you find someone who makes your heart race like you did mine.
YOU ARE READING
enthusiast of many except myself
RandomI don't know I'm just bored and can't sleep. On the other hand, I know perfectly well what I'm writing. Perhaps this will one day serve as a sort of diary.
