[ON-GOING] A Prequel To Annulled: 2190, It's Just The Beginning

7

"Honey, won't you make an appearance to the airport tonight?" Mom asked the moment I opened the door for her.

It's already Thursday evening when I finally found the will to went out of my room after being caged inside for three days. What happened last Monday was the last encounter I had with Baekhyun. I was absent for three consecutive days already, not because I'm sick nor any other acceptable reasons as to why I wasn't going to school. Lately, I just don't really feel the will to go to school anymore but having Baekhyun beside me somehow gave me little reasons why going to school is still fun. But when Monday evening came, I felt like I came back to zero again.

"I have to review for my exams tomorrow," I lied, sitting back to the edge of my bed, my back facing mom. I don't want her to see me like this anymore. "Would you mind? I want to be alone."

"Chanyeol," it was late when I realized mom already locked the door, sitting beside me, enveloping me for a hug. "It's just three years. After that, you'll see each other once again," I shrugged.

They don't understand me because they're not in my shoes. They're not the ones who's having and suffering from separation anxiety. It will never be easy for me because I grew up having him by my side albeit that most of the times, he's annoying me. I still loved him as a brother, just don't wanna tell him because it will just booze his clingy side and I kinda hate it.

"Three years is long," I stated. I suddenly felt my fist balling. "It will never be easy."

"You can have Baekhyun with you, Chanyeol. That's the reason why it took Suho long to follow his parents in New York," with that mentioned again, I don't know what to feel anymore.

Last Monday, Suho was off. He's like a wide array of sunshine everyday but that day was an exception. He wasn't even smiling at me and didn't even pestered me that day. Unbeknownst to me, he already terminated his application for the whole academic year and was only waiting for me to come home. The moment I stepped inside our house, I was about to launch myself to him when I noticed the foreign expression he has on his face. Like what I said, Suho was a happy-go-lucky, easy-going, and affable kind of person, but the Suho who welcomed me was the uptight Suho that I rarely see. When I say rarely, out of 365 days a year, it only happen 5 times a year.

He told me that he's going to New York on Thursday, and that's basically today. Mom wasn't shocked at all and that what furies me. After all this time, she knew it. But I shrugged it off because knowing my mom? I know she won't hide it to me unless it will harm me, there will always be a reason. What Suho said next made me feel worse. He said that he was planned to follow after his parents even before we're on our second year on middle school. It's just that it got postponed because he hasn't found yet the one who will take care of me just like how he took care of me as his brother. How sweet, right? But I felt the other way. I felt betrayed, I felt like being toyed the whole time and I hated myself for thinking like that. I don't have the balls to show myself in front of him anymore. I feel embarrassed on how I acted childishly in front of the person who became selfless over an ungrateful bastard like me.

"Baekhyun and Suho are two different things," I said through my gritted teeth. Although I failed to show Suho how I treasure our friendship, no one, not even Baekhyun, will dethrone him as my favorite person in this world. "Baekhyun will never be Suho."

"I understand," mom patted my head. "But you do know that Suho wasn't mad at you on how you acted when he told you that thing, right?" I opted not to answer. "Come on, go and send him to the airport or else you'll regret this day in the future."

I have no choice already but to loosen up and break the walls. In an instant, I felt my eyes started to water. "I don't want to appear weak in front of him."