Miraa POV -
I've been having nightmares of my dad coming back and beating my ass. I'm scared shitless to show Nate the text he sent me. He said he's going to come back and rape me and beat my ass and shoot me in the head. I'm really terrified of him. He used to be so sweet and I don't even know what happened. Nate is good to me but i feel like it's just because he feels sorry for me. I feel like I don't deserve him and I don't even deserve to live here anymore. I sighed and grabbed my journal and started writing
Dear Diary,
I feel so useless and used. I feel like I don't belong in this world. Nate is so good to me but I feel like he's just using me. I feel like he doesn't even care about me I feel like he just wants to get me to trust him and fuck him so he can leave. Maybe those girls were right. He doesn't love me. I'm disgusting and ugly. Why would he even wanna be with me. All the guys I've ever met has left me. I wanna ball up and cry the pain away. I feel so bad because I know what's it gonna come down to and I'm scared that Nate is going to be long gone and no one is gonna save me. No one is gonna behind me. I feel like I'm dying and I can't even stop it. I wish my dad would've beat me to death. I love Nate with everything in me. He's my New York beybeh. His accent is dreamy and I swear I could fall in love with him like that. He doesn't wanna date me though. I'm broken and ugly. But it's nice to dream about the shit he'd do to me tho. Lol Nate Nate Nate ..
Love , MJ❤️
Nate walked through the door just as I put my journal away. I made a fake smile and went to make food. I didn't even feel like talking today.
" Miraa what is this shit I found " he said with my phone in my hand.
" What you talking about ? " I replied.
" This text message from your dad " He said.
I dropped my spoon and immediately put my head down. I didn't know how to explain it to him. I didn't want him to worry and plus it's been 3 days since I got that text. Nothing has happened. I know what Nate is capable of and I know what my dad is capable of as well. I'm scared for Nate cause if he dies, I can't do it anymore. I can't live I won't make it.
" I'm sorry " I said.
" Sorry ? You sorry ?? Why am I just now seeing this shit huh ? Why you hiding this shit from me " He yelled.
" Nathaniel I said I was sorry " I said with my voice cracking.
" Sorry don't make up for this shit you pulled I'm upset with you I can't even look at you bruh " He said.
I just cried. I didn't know what else to do. He didn't even look at me or budge. I just cried until I couldn't anymore. I got up and grabbed my keys and phone. On the way out I seen my journal. I grabbed that too.
" I'm going for a walk " I said softly.
When he didn't answer I just threw my book at him and walked out. I didn't even bother looking back. He was acting petty for nothing. The whole walk I cried and cried. I never could catch a break. Shit only got worst for me. As I was walking I felt a cold breeze on my neck. Next thing I knew I was getting dragged into a car with a bag over my head. They locked me in the trunk and drove off. I immediately texted Nate.
Text Convo -
Me; nate i'm scared. i'm sorry .. im in a van idk what happened.
Me; gxgxhnvfnkkrxbjkkddf
- Text Convo Over
Nate POV -
I was mad at Miraa. She kept that shit from me and it made me mad. After all I did for her and she still can't be honest with me. In the corner of my eye I saw a pink book. It had 'DO NOT TOUCH' written on it. I opened it and turned to the most recent used page. While reading it I let all my anger go. I was feeling Miraa, I wanted to be with her but I didn't know how to tell her. I can't believed she feels like that. A tear dropped down my face as I closed the book. My phone vibrated with a text. It read :
From: Miraa❤️
nate i'm scared. i'm sorry .. im in a van idk what happened
gxgxhnvfnkkrxbjkkddf
I immediately ran upstairs to get my glock and my keys. Someone took my heart and now I'm on a mission. They have me fucked up if they think they about to get away with this. I followed the GPS her phone gave off to me. See Miraa smart, she left it on so I could find her. These niggas won't know what hit them. I called up Diquan and Troy and told em what happened. They called the crew and we were on out way. These niggas not ready at all ..
