I Love Him<3, But He Loves Her</3 (Jacquees love Story)

Chapter 8

Niyah's p.o.v..

I haven't talked for two months, my life is just over with.. Im so dull, the thoughts that always fill my mind are of me and Jacquees, I miss him so much. And how happy my mom is with Toreal.. I try to be so mean and dull to everyone but i see how he makes her feel and i cant help but be happy for her.. But other than that its just all about Jacquees..I decided to get in the program the school wanted me to be in where you graduate early, I always said no because I wanted to graduate with my friends.. But I have none anymore so I should be graduating next month..

*gagging* I rushed to the bathroom and opened up the toilet seat and began throwing up.. My mom came in and held up my hair,"Just let it out babe, the pain and stress WI be over soon.."

I started to cry, she reached down and turned me her way," I know you miss him, and I know it hurts you but you have to talk... Please for me?"

I just shook my head no and cried in her arms and all she would say is, I understand.... I love my mom so much and it hurts me that I can't talk to her.. Every time I try to speak and I open my mouth nothing comes out.. And I want to tell her so bad that it's not stress, that I think IM pregnant.. And that IM keeping it if I am because it would be the only thing I have left of Jacquees... I lifted my head up and looked her deep in her pretty blue eyes... She looked at me knowing that I was ready to communicate even if it wasn't in words... I pointed at me and she said,"You?" I shook my head yes..... I pointed to my head and she said,"Think?".... I pointed at me again,"You." And lastly I pointed at my stomach.. She looked in confusion.... "You think your getting fat?"

I shook my head hysterically and breathed hard in frustration... I put my arms together and rocked them back and forth like it was a baby and pointed to my stomach.. She paused like she had it and then just looked at me confused... I smiled because I love her slow white ass..... "OHHHH.... You think your pregnant?" I nodded In shame... She looked at me so deep, it was like she was looking through me and knew every emotion I was feeling & every thought I was thinking... She stood up and pulled me up.. She turned the shower on and stripped me like I was disabled and pointed to the shower and she walked out. I got in the shower and it felt so good... I washed up and got out and saw the clothes she had set for me... I dried off and lotioned up... I put on the real skinny jeans, with a cream shirt that draped down in the back, with cream wedges and walked downstairs as shy as ever... This has been the first time I was out the house in a whole two months. My mom smiled and grabbed my hands.. She let me drive to the clinic, I was a little rusty because I haven't drive in a while.. We signed In and waited for 10  minutes... "Ja'Niyah Johnson?" The doctor called I got up reluctantly and walked behind the doctor to a room.. They had me pee In a cup and the. I just sat there uncomfortably .. My mom looked at me and saw I was shaking, she grabbed my hand for comfort, when the doctor walked in I free very nervous and started shaking.... "Ja'Niyah Johnson Congratulations your two and a half months pregnant." I smiled and shook his hand and walked to the car... The ride home was silent, and when I got home I went up to my room and for the first time in two months I picked up my phone and looked at twitter, I had alot of people sending sorries and saying they missed me.... And I tweeted ..... Tweet: Im pregnant, and the father of my baby has passed away :(

... Immediately I was getting questions and congratulations... I sighed and threw my phone down... I looked at my little tiny barely noticeable bump and just Started to realize all that I had to do...

I had to be more than a good mom to my unborn child.. And I read in books that you have to talk to them while they are in your stomach so they can know your voice.. I don't want my baby to come out thinking my mom is her/his mom because they have heard her voice I... I opened my mouth to speak," H-h-hey l-l-ove." I said softly.. I smiled at my accomplishment... Now I have plenty more to get done.

I walked downstairs to see my mom cooking my favorite,"Mmm my favorite, Tater tot casserole." I said nervously

"You've always liked it since you were younger I-." She stopped and Turned around with her mouth open.. She ran to me and hugged me... She started to cry,"I've missed your beautiful voice, don't put me through that again please...."

I shook my head yes and she pointed at me with a death stare... "I meant yes mom." I said with a sarcastic tone.....

Jacquees's p.o.v.

She's pregnant? Wow I can't believe it, now that Im gone I realized she was the one I loved all along. She wasn't even my girlfriend and she grieved over my death longer then my mother..I asked God to send me back down to earth once but he refused because he said he wanted me to see what was going on and to see who was really there for me all along.. And at first I was confused but now I see he means Niyah... And I feel bad that she is going through this for me.. But Wether she believes it or not I watch over her.. God has only been letting me see her from above.. There is alot of rooms with peoples names on it so you can see what that person is doing, each hallways is a different family.. And the other day I went into Niyah's and saw hers, her moms, and her dad, and another door with a name that was unfamiliar.. It said Angel.. I went in the door and it was dark I couldn't see anything all I could hear was Niyah's moms voice, and now I know that my baby girls name will be angel.. I can now visit earth but they won't be able to see me, will they ever be able to see me?