i want to have a bright genuine smile
accompanied by a mellifluous laugh
the kind that makes others feel happy
for themselves and for my happiness
i really would like to hold happiness
the kind that wont make me dread
the next unpredictable panic attack
or another series of lonely nights
i want a feeling that can be remembered
even when i feel numb because i am so tired
of relapsing i just want the future the recovery
to feel normal maybe be alright at least
i want to make someone happy
happy enough not to ever leave please
tell me how i can make someone stay
how exactly do i be okay when they go their own way
