Amnesia (A Jaegan Fan Fic)

Mistake

*Justin's POV*

"I didn't want to break up with you Justin" raegan said as my eyes widened.

"What..." I said as I teared up. "Raegan... you decide to tell me this now? I'm going on tour and I won't have time to hang out. I'm already being shipped with Tyler so now Jyler is a thing and so is Jerek and Jick. I can't just stop it all and be with you!" I yelled as I cried.

I didn't really mean what I said. I wanted him so bad but he just couldn't know that.

"Jay..." "no! I love you but you know as well as I do that this is just something else talking. You don't really mean it and you are just gonna break up with me all over again!" I started to sob. This was really happening..

Raegan said he was hot and I told him to roll up his sleeves. He refused so I did it for him, i suddenly saw him wince and pull away.

"Rae... don't tell me you..." I said quietly as he held his arm and sobbed. I had barely ever saw Raegan cry... but he was. He was hurting and I could tell it wasn't just physically.. but he really did have something going on.

"I made a mistake... I love you so much Justin. I always have. But your right.. we can't date right now cause we aren't in a good position to... but please promise me... promise me that one day.. you will come back to me again." He cried as I started to cry again too.

Next thing I knew, we were hugging and crying together "I promise rae. I promise" I said in between sobs.

We then cuddled for a while as our tears stopped. I was laying on raegans chest and he was using one hand to run his fingers through my hair and the other to hold my hand.

He started to sing his newly released song that was called 'No 2 Love' and I knew it was partially about me. I smiled as I hummed asking to his singing.

Soon after I ended up falling asleep.

*Raegan's POV*

I watched as the small boy on my chest slept, I ran my fingers through his hair and sighed. I really did make a big mistake by breaking up with him. I made a very big mistake.

Tears started streaming down my face as I realized that no matter what I do, Justin will never take me back... it's my fault.

To make sure that I didn't wake him up, I slowly rolled him off of me and tucked him in, placing a small kiss on his forehead "I love you.." I whispered as I went into the bathroom and locked the door.

As I took a deep breath, I grabbed a box of blades and took one out, sitting onto the floor and slicing my arm.

One cut, I miss the way things used to be.
Two cuts, I should of told him when I could.
Three cuts, this is all my fault.
Four cuts, I don't deserve to have him.
Five cuts, I don't deserve to live.

As I sobbed and sobbed everything started to get blurry.

Was I dying?

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