Hot Nights 🌙//Chessa

A mistake ? 😳

Erika and I were laying on her bed against her back board while this was taken place. Erika is so helpful she's much older so she really understands a lot. I could tell Erika also had something on her mind but I was to self absorbed to ask.
Continued...
E: what? Don't tell me you. No. You didn't right. Tessa please tell me you didn't after you broke up??
T: chance and I had sex last night. (looking down crying)
E: aww baby why would you do that to yourself. (Hugging me tight) It's alright though we're all human we make mistakes or mishaps.
T: that's why I woke up early I had to wash my sheets this morning.
E:stares at me in shock*
I could feel her eyes laid on me
T: and it's such an emotional rollercoaster because I don't know whether to get back together or just be friends like this is hard for me this is probably the hardest decision I've ever had to make.
E: how do you feel physically like what.
Tessa explains what happened(in detail)
T:I just missed his kiss, so I went in for a Kiss and it got hot and within minutes we were both stripped from our clothes. He laid me back and asked if that was what I wanted and I just thought that was what I wanted. So I said yes. It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would be. It was very hyped up, Sex isn't all that great.
E: well it was your first time it's not going to be enjoying. My first time was defiantly not enjoying.
T: no I enjoyed it just it wasn't like great.
E: oh it will get better (both laugh in sync )

When I was telling Erika what happened between us I just thought of it as a mistake but it's not. Chance was not a mistake. My mom told me to wait for someone I love, and I do love chance a lot.

*Erika and I ordered froyo and watched a movie in her room till about 1 when Jake came in to get her and I just laid in her bed for awhile because I didn't want to pass by chances room.
After about 20 minutes of finishing the notebook I grab my phone and head upstairs. I see the boys room door open and I look in it, no chance. Toner tells me he left earlier but doesn't know where he is. I lie and say I wasn't looking for him.
T: okay goodnight ladies (laughs)
As I'm walking to my room I see it's cracked. I step in to see chance passed out on my bed.
T: chance ? !
C: oh sorry I was waiting for you to get back and just passed out.
We both stare at each other like there's an elephant in the room
C: I'm sorry Tessa, I know I messed up. We shouldn't ha-
T: no it's okay, I'm fine chance thank you.
C: okay (confused).....goodnight (smiles)
T: goodnight (tearing)
I walked towards my bathroom while chance was walking out. I wasn't trying to hear what he had to say. I was trying not to cry in front of chance but seeing him makes me sad. I just want to be with him.
Authors note: omg guys they had sex 😱 Tessa is hurting so much rn. I didn't want to make it that dirty because it wasn't suppose to be enjoying for Tessa. Please vote for my story it would Mean a lot 😘