The Norwegian Twins

Can't Sleep

By the time we arrived back to Martinus n Marcus house, it was already late so when Martinus help me to my wheel chair he walked me to my room. I didn't even need the wheelchair that much anymore but it was just so I can gain my full body strength back.

Then he called Jinger to help me change.

When I was on my pj's Martinus knocked and I told him to come in.

He sat on the bed next to me and I hugged him.

Me: Goodnight sunshine of my life.
Martinus : goodnight princess. I love you.
Me: I love you too.

Then we hugged more tight and Martinus kissed me between my eyebrows.

XD💞

Martinus : sweet dreams.
Me: u too

Then he smiled super cute as always and left.

He looked kind of down but I guess he's tired.

I was really tired but I couldn't sleep because I was afraid.

I started thinking again.

I thought that these kids were now my family. My home. My everything.

OK I had more friends but I cannot compare then to my new family.

They would die for me. I would die for them.

I just can't imagine my life without these 3.

Then I thought of my old parents. I tried to get it off my mind but I just couldn't help.

I felt alone again.

I started bringing back memories, like when I was cutting my self.

Yes I did that too.

I committed suicide...

I convinced my self that I won't do anything like that again and won't even try to cut myself.

"suicide is a permanent solution for temporary problems"

But idk why I get these thoughts...

I am afraid because I think I'll die while I'm sleeping.

Or just be disabled again.

I then got my phone and checked if Martinus was online.

Last seen 1 min ago.

I decided to tax him.

Me: Hi bby...
Martinus :Vera! Why are you up so late?
Me: Why are YOU up so late?
Martinus: Im excited... Or better too happy
Me: Y?
Martinus : I got you back. It's the best day of my life... No... The day I'll marry you is that day!
Me: Martinus 😢💞LY
Martinus : What's wrong anyways?❤️
Me: I'm thinking 💭...
Martinus : Thinking?
Me: Stuff...
Martinus : Common u can tell me everything! I'm here for you!
Me: ty Martinus. Means a lot to hear that from u. My problem is that I'm afraid that I'll stop breathing if I'll go to sleep.
Martinus : oh Veronica! No you won't! U just woke up and u have a whole life in front of you! There's nothing to worry about! Tomorrow we gonna have so much fun! And you won't even need the wheelchair for long. If you won't sleep now, ull be exhausted tommorow! U can't lose that ❤️🙏Close Ur eyes and sleep.
Me: Martinus u can't understand I'm sweating rn I'm panicked!
Martinus : Is it OK if I'll come now? I want to check out Ur temperature...
Me: please... Come

Yeah Martinus u a doctor also

Oh and yes really now imma bout to pee myself because I felt like someone threw something on the window.

I can't move and this is really creepy.

Martinus came in really fast putting on a t-shirt.

He ran to me and hugged me.

Then he placed his lips on my forehead. And then kissed it.

Martinus : no u r OK... Bby what's all that about?

He sat closer to me and side hugged me.

Me: I was afraid already and then I heard something hitting my window and I saw it too! I swear this was real.
Martinus : awe... Im here now and no one can hurt u if he won't kill me first.
Me: don't leave me Martinus... Please stay here.
Martinus : I can stay here.. But obviously my parents will be all like: "what were u doing in her room" and "this is not right" and blah blah blah.
Me: please..if they see u ill tell them everything.
Martinus : can't say no to ur majesty. Common lay down. I'll go bring a blanket for me too.
Me: the tweety one?
Martinus: ha no!

Then we heard a door. Ofc it was Emma having her night toilet visits as usual.

Me: better stay here. I don't think that Emma ships us that much.
Martinus : in sorry about that. Just don't mind her.

Then we both payed on the bed.

Martinus opened his arms to a hug.

Tinus: May I?
Me: mhm.

And he hugged me. I felt full but still couldn't sleep. I kept on changing positions.

Martinus : You are my first, kiss. Never knew it. Could feel like this...

I stopped moving because he was just too cute. And relaxing also. I fell asleep after that.