no one reads this anyways so i can write whatever i want
this is bullshit, i read her mind and she doesn't even care about what i want to to do
they say its a cry for help
"they think" 'well, now they'll see' and that's how it starts, its for attention"
and god maybe it is but what else is it supposed to do?
i dont have anything for me to do anymore, there is no one i can turn to
and i don't want their help, i want them to see
sometimes i think her and i are the same person
she wants me to feel guilty and dead for what i did
i want her to feel the same way for what she didn't do
it's her fault, as long as i tell myself that, i'll be ok
i'll be a liar wrapped in bandages but still alive
after all of this, i'll still be alive
and i dont want her help, i want to be needed
as long as i am needed i have reason to live
but i don't need her
i don't need anyone.
