It Takes Two (Book 3)

Retrograde

(Shay's POV)

Those words rang in my head for what seemed like forever. As I was laying there on his chest just soaking in his calming heartbeat, I imagined that none of this even happened. That it was just a regular afternoon in our nice home and with our perfect little baby sleeping soundly in the next room like the little angel he is.

In reality, I lost everything.

I honestly thought Jaden just mentioned a divorce out of pure anger; but he was absolutely serious. I just honestly can not believe this is happening right now. I can't wrap my head around this situation, it's too painful to bear.

"Shay?" Jaden questioned because of my silence.

I sat up, wiped away my tears and looked into his beautiful eyes. I looked at the pieces of ripped paper all over the floor. I looked at how messy the room was. I looked at my hands that were cut up from last night's festivities. Then I realized. Jaden is way too good for me. Looking around showed me he was the only perfect thing in my messed up life at the moment and he does not deserve that. Not one bit. There is something seriously wrong with me and I refuse to bring Jaden down with me. I need him so bad right now but, he absolutely does not need me.

This moment of reflection might ruin me but, it's for the best.

"I'll sign them." I say looking off into the window.

"What?" Jaden said as he sat up quickly.

"Bring new papers tomorrow and I'll sign them" I looked him dead in his eyes trying to not let a single tear fall from my aching eyes.

He just looked at me, surprised and confused.

"I'll have all my stuff packed by then and I'll be gone once you arrive tomorrow. Just let me say bye to Isaiah and I'll be out of your way."

I felt absolutely terrible and broken inside after saying that. But it's what I have to do. I'm a cheater. I'm a liar. I'm ignorant and I don't listen. Enough said.

Jaden looked away from me and rubbed the back of his neck. He got up without looking at me and headed towards the door.

"I'll see you tomorrow." He whispered and closed the door behind him. I rested my head in my hands and just cried until I ran out of tears. I'm such a fucking idiot.

(Jaden's POV)

I quickly made my way out of that house and into my car. I sat in silence for a while just letting the tears run down my face. I was soon filled with anger and started violently banging on the steering wheel. I can't believe she gave up. I mean I know I came with the divorce papers but, this is truly the end. I just can't believe it. I've lost my baby girl for good now and I couldn't be more upset, sad, angry, hurt. Everything. I rubbed my eyes and pulled out of the driveway heading back to Chres'. As I drive in silence, all I can think about is what could I have done to help her more? What could I have done to prevent all of this? Every part of me wishes tomorrow never comes. I'm such a fucking idiot.

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(Shay's POV)

I already packed up the bedroom and bathroom of everything I own. I called my mom filling her in on everything that has happened and thankfully, that is where I will be staying until I can get a place of my own. Craig, on the other hand, had been blowing up my phone nonstop the whole morning. I blocked him from everything because of course now I realize, he does not deserve to be in my life.