READ THE NOTE AT THE END.
IT'S DEEP.
I packed a bag with a bottle of water and my poem journal, I didn't bring food because it's no use.
My parents are asleep, so that's my signal.
I slowly sneaked out of my broken home and ran.
I ran away as fast as I can, not looking back, I don't even know where am I going, I'm just going far away.
I slowly arrived to what seems to be a forest so I sat under a tree and rested my head backward.
After a while of breathing heavily, tears started streaming down my pale face, and uncontrollable sobs left my cold lips.
I'm losing all my hope in this life, because... There's nothing left to hold.
No warmness and love in my home, I'm here in a middle of nowhere, locked out in the cold. I doubt that someone is out there looking for me. For everyone I'm not missing, I was already missing before tonight.
I lied on the hard ground and looked at the dark sky decorated by the shining stars, those stars are brighter than my future. I chuckled at the thought.
I opened my eyes slowly adjusting to the light, my body felt sore from sleeping on the cold ground but if that means bringing the warmth back then, it's worth it.
I got up and walked around to an unfamiliar neighborhood, I watched the houses on every side, and there was kids playing around.
What took my attention, was the family on the left side of the sidewalk.
The parents were teaching the girl how to ride her bike, they looked so happy.
I wonder how would it be if my parents were like this, happy, loving, how would it be if me and mum went shopping and did a mother daughter day? And maybe me and dad went to the lake nearby or painted my room together?
But no.
All they do is fight, they fight so much that they forgot they have a teenager.
I stopped at a public park where I sat in an empty table and grabbed my journal, and wrote whatever I remember from poems or lyrics when I felt a presence of someone, I left my head to look at the stranger, it was tall guy with black hair and wearing a leather jacket, I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, I was nervous at first because... Who know what are his attentions for God's sake, I'm just a fifteen years old girl in the park by herself, he sat on the opposite side of the table.
"Hey" he spoke but I ignored him and tried to get up but he cut me off.
"Hey Maya" I froze, how the heck does he know my name.
"Yeah maybe I look like a freak now, hey I'm Kay, nice to meet you we are from the same school silly!" He chuckled but I didn't seem to find the right word.
"Hey... I... I don't know how to say this to be honest... You're a strong and talented girl... Don't give up, everything has an end, it'll end soon" he stutter as he spoke quietly, I'm still confused.
"I... I'm confused..." I spoke for the first time in days that I forgot my voice.
"Look... I just... Just keep going strong and try to stand up to yourself and show your voice maybe your parents will listen.... I'm just rumbling" he whispered the last bit and I'm still confused.
"I found this with some girls at school, they were making fun of it, but they don't know it's yours so your safe, I.... Heard what they were reading and... As I told you just be strong..." He gave me a notebook but it wasn't just a random notebook it was my dairies!! I felt my cheeks redden and heat up.
"Um... I should probably go now..." And by that he walked away.
I got up and ran away from the park and decided that it's time to go back.
I walked towards our front door and twisted the Handel and entered, yelling could be heard from my parents room.
I walked to my room and to the shower, I stripped from my clothes and filled the bath with cold water.
I slowly sank into it whimpering at the coldness of it, and close my eyes, a long sigh leaving my trembling lips.
I sank more so the was above my nose, and without hesitation my head was under the water, making sure there is no air sneak into my lungs.
I was so calm until I remembered the Kay's words.
try to stand up to yourself and show your voice maybe your parents will listen....
I know there is no use but I'll try, I returned my head to the air and gasped.
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I wanted to clear something out.
(She was going to shower, but with cold water...).
The cold water is her regrets.... and she sank into her regrets..... but sometimes, words can save a life.... And can destroy it too....
