Hopeless

Chapter 2

"Ever since my dad has been gone, life has been great!" I exclaimed to Sariah.

"But, hasnt it been only a day?"

"Yes, but well, I-I-I dont know, I guess." I stuttered.

"Aurelia Faith Grey! What are you hiding from your BEST friend?" She emphasized best. What did I get myself into? I dont know if I can tell her.

"Sariah, listen Im sure there is some secret that you are also hiding from me, but I just cant tell you, Im sorry." I explained quite honestly.

"You know what Aurelia, no, Im not keeping a big secret from you! I dont know why the hell your acting like this but i could care less. Welcome to the real world!" She then slapped me on the arm, I flinched. When i did flinch her face softened. She realized that something like this goes on at my house.

"Aurelia, Im sorry, listen Ill come over after school and you can tell me. I know now, Im so sorry. Also, I like just started my period and I have extremely bad tempers." She apologized.

"Alright, alright, Ill tell you everything tonight after school. Meet me around seven, that will give us time for homework if we have any." We walked away from each other and i went to my locker. As I was opening my locker I got an excruciating pain in my stomach. I ran to the bathroom, sending Sariah a message saying I might be late. I stood there for a bit then went pee. I went to wipe and saw blood. Fūck no. I started my fucking period. I didnt have pads, or tampons. I went back to class and told the teacher I puked. Man teachers are so gulable these days. My mom then came and picked me up.

"M-M-Mom, I-I-I started my p-p-period." I stuttered. "I got an extremely painful cramp and ran to the bathroom thinkimg I was going to puke. I went pee and when I wiped I saw a lot of blood. I just had to come home, I didnt have pads or tampons or anything." I stared crying, fuck these horomones. Two months after Sariah starts her period, I start mine. I got home and ran upstairs. My mom told me to use whatever, so I just grabbed the first thing I saw. Of course it had to be a tampon, oddly and luckily, Sariah showed me how to put one in.

I went downstairs and watched T.V for a bit. I went back upstairs to change tampons and then went into my dads room. I walked around for a bit. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a notebook on his nightstand. I sat on his bed and opened it up.

Janurary 21, 1988

Today my beatings have been worse than ever. My mother beat me with a hammer. I now know what Jesus went through. She hammered nails into my upper thigh. I was slapped, kicked, punched, and stabbed. Policemen stopped by at about 5:00. They said that my father had been killed in a fire at the office building. He was my only hope for getting away from my mother! All my hope is gone now! Im hopeless! I hate Jesus! I hate God! He took my father away from me! My life is over! Why cant I just be killed instead!

Rett Grey

So thats what happened to my father, thats why he is like this. There has to be so much more. I will find out what happened to him, no matter what.

"Aurelia! Sariah is here!"

"Okay Mom!"