Sorry Not Sorry

Chapter 4

Eva woke up to Tom's long eyelashes barely fluttering on his lightly freckled skin. She was suddenly aware of how close he was, where his hands lay, and that she was very naked.

"Oh shit, oh my god, shit, shit, shit." She hissed rolling out of the bed. She snatched up a stray button down shirt of his and quickly buttoned it up. "Tom you've got to wake up."

Tom groggily rubbed at his eyes and let out a massive yawn, God he looked gorgeous in the glow of the morning sun.

"Whats wrong Eva?" He said sitting up in the bed, his muscled chest was all too distracting.

"We-I mean- you and me." She paced across the floor.

Tom just looked at her with a confused look.

"We had sex Tom!"

"Yeah? And?" Tom shrugged and ran a hand through his loose curls.

"And! I don't know what exactly because it was amazing-no- oh my god. I can't believe myself. Tom I've got a fiancé!" Eva shouted. She frantically searched for her phone in the mess of blankets and clothes in the room.

When the device was found she was shocked to see that she didn't have any missed calls, frantic texts, or that it didn't spontaneously explode.

"I've got to go." She said pushing her black hair behind her ears.

"Eva, just another go around." Tom grabbed her wrist and pulled her into the folds of the white sheets.

Eva started to protest and stand back up when Tom's mouth captured her. She felt that fire light in her again, Jack never made her feel like this.

Jack.

"Tom..." She mumbled against his mouth.

"Yes darling?" His voice was barely above a whisper, it sent goosebumps across her flesh. His golden mouth then kissed at the sweet flesh he found at the crook of her neck.

Eva softly whimpered. She craved something like this, but it was wrong. It was so wrong.

"Tom stop." She pushed him away and he gave her a look of rejection. "This is wrong! Don't you feel bad for this?" Eva searched his eyes for the truth.

"It's our little secret darling. Come see me tonight." Tom's large hand was dangerously high on her bare thigh. Her green eyes flickered over the small scene playing before her.

She did feel happier around him, and he was a great lover. Maybe this was more okay than she thought, it would be their secret and she trusted him not to say anything.

"Okay, tonight. I'll be here around 9."

"That's my girl." Tom smiled.

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"I'm home sweetheart!" Eva called into her shared apartment with Jack.

"Hey babe." He said from the kitchen, the scraping of pans could be heard from the front door.

"Sorry, I ended up staying later than expected. You didn't miss me too much did you?" Eva asked kissing his cheek.

"Not too much." Jack said almost unenthusiastically.

Eva gave him a look, almost worried that knew her secret, he couldn't. There was no way.

"What are you cooking?" She asked looking at the pans.

"Bacon and eggs." Jack gave her a smirk.

"It smells delicious." Eva didn't realize how hungry she was until now. A night of frantic lovemaking made a person very hungry.

They ate in silence for a few minutes, Eva happily looked at her fiancé. She thought about happy she was with Jack. He had proposed 6 months ago but they never set a date, they were both too busy.

She studied him harder, he was a very handsome guy. Tall, muscular build, black hair, tasteful scruff, bright grey blue eyes. A mark on his neck caught his attention.

"What happened?" Eva asked pointing with her fork.

"What are you talking about?" Jack asked.

"That mark, on your neck." She chewed some eggs. "What happened?"

Jack looked panicked for a moment. Eva kept studying it. Suddenly a pattern showed up.

"Is that a hickey?" She finally asked.

"No," Jack shoveled more eggs into his mouth.

"Yes it is Jack, where is it from. Cause I know I didn't give it to you." Eva put down her fork and the situation became suddenly very grave.

"Eva, sweetheart."

"No, where did that come from?" Eva crossed her arms over her chest, she wasn't going to put up with that. "I sure as hell didn't give it to you."

"Its-"

"Stop giving me excuses!" She shouted hitting the table. "Jack who gave you that hickey? Are-are you cheating on me?"

"You're always at work.." Jack began.

"And it makes it okay how?!" Eva was furious.

"Eva, you spend all that time with your boss, how do I know you're not cheating on me?" Jack pushed his plate away.

"That's not fair. You know he's helping me with my career." Eva's mouth was pulled to a tight line.

"Helping it how? By fucking you into all hours of the night?! Jesus Eva how do I know that you haven't been doing it with Tom Hiddleston while I'm at work. You're always with him." Jack shot back.

Eva suddenly felt a rock sink in her stomach. She had cheated on Jack, but he didn't know that yet.

He was still right.

"He doesn't know that yet." She thought to herself. "But it still happened."

"Leave." Eva pointed to the door.

"This is my place too." Jack protested.

"I pay most of the rent anyway, get the hell out of my house and take your damn stuff with you." Eva stood from the table and grabbed her jacket.

Once outside the door, she made it as fast as she could down the staircase outside, flagged down a cab and rode to Tom's place.

As she stood in front of the door, her hand hovered. Eva was scared. But she mustered up just enough courage to rap on his door.

"Who is it?" The muffled voice came from inside.

"Eva."

The locks clicked and the door flung open with great enthusiasm.

"Oh my god you are naked." She said covering her eyes.

"You've seen it before." Tom smiled wickedly. "What are you doing here, I thought you weren't coming till 9?"

"Jack has been cheating on me, I told him to leave but I couldn't stand to sit there any longer." Eva said sitting on the couch. Tom appeared next to her in boxer briefs.

"Jack was cheating?" Tom said placing an arm around Eva's shoulders.

"I dont know for how long, I just found out today." She looked at his hand on his shoulder and shifted.

"Don't go." Tom said with concern.

"I'm just moving around." Eva answered.

"I wanted to make sure you were comfortable." Tom's gaze was predatory and he captured her jaw between her lips.

"I'm very comfortable now."