I'm so happy with my life,
Everything is seemingly perfect.
But some days, I'm not happy.
Those days are sad and dark.
My own mother drinks herself hysterical almost every night.
When she's reached the peak of her emotional state, she comes to me.
She'll rant and rave and cry to my younger sister, then come and cry to me.
She doesn't support the decision I've made to get married.
It's like she is scared... But of what?
It's a dark shadow of uncertainty that's crawling over her.
Why can't she just be happy?
How can I be happy?
When she's like this, it scares me.
It scares my sister.
I'm worried that something drastic will happen.
How can I be happy for myself when my mother is crying?
How can I look to the future, when it kills me that she doesn't think I have one?
How can I please her?
How can I please myself?
How can I?
