You took your pain
and you
sharpened it
into a weapon.
I know no one else
with such a terrible skill.
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How do you speak to someone deafened by their own screams?
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I had to pull you
from my heart.
I couldn't take it
anymore.
Removing you cut me
like a blade of steel
and I let my pain
pour.
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You were broken, how did you break me too?
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To force submission with fear is to forfeit the heart.
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I bled and bled and bled for you until the floor was red.
And you know what you said?
"More."
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[I'm sorry about all this morbid stuff, I had to end a friendship and I just needed to get my pain out of my system.]
1/17/18
You are drowning
And I know it's not my fault
But just to see your struggles
Burns my wounds as if with salt.
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I wish I could be heartless
and feel no empathy.
Because if I could be heartless
your pain would not hurt me.
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Is it wrong
to wish you away?
To hope you'll leave
a place I know you'll always stay?
I pray for your growth
and healing on your own.
But selfishly I wish
that healing place wasn't also my home.
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2/1/18
Sometimes I
don't feel alright.
and sometimes I
just want to cry.
But why?
-
Why are hearts
so full of parts
that feel the sharp
pain that arcs
and always starts
to tear apart
the stitches that are
so very hard
to keep together?
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I have always forgiven.
It is my way.
If I could forgive
I could forget
my pain.
To forget is to move on.
But
I haven't forgiven
you just yet.
What you did to me
I will never forget.
I try and try
to let it go.
So I can move on.
But
It cut too deep
the blade you used
the one you sharpened
with your own pain.
So I have this wound
that I don't know
if I can close
so that means that I
can't let go.
Because if I can't forgive
I can't forget.
Is this wound in me
Forever set?
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Messy Mind Writings
RandomThis is just a random rant page that I wanted to put in here for shits and giggles. Part silly-stupid-useless crap that I might have just made up in my brain and decided to write down, like a smidge of a story idea-that-never-will-be or maybe someth...