Okay! here is another PhanFic! I completely dedicate this one to Cokemania, she convinced me to write this and also she wrote all the parts with Dan, go check her out, she is AWESOME! I wrote the parts with Phil! I guess I should explain what's going on....Um DanAndPhilHaveHadAnArgumentAndPhiI'sAboutToSaySorryAndAllThat... Hope you guys love it! Okay...here we go!
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Dan
Dan sat silently on his bed, his thoughts filling his head. 'Why am I sitting here why aren't I yelling at him!?' Another thought... 'Because you can't idiot...' 'But he insulted me I am not a child and yet he still thinks I am so now I'm stuck here in my room when he should apologize!!!' He frowned angrily.
Phil
Phil stood awkwardly in front of Dan's door for what seemed like hours; Every passing second felt like a jab at his heart as he stared down at his hand clasped round the door handle, warm from the contact.
'What am I doing? I had a right to be mad....but I didn't have to yell at him...It was my fault, not his...'
A little surge of confidence controlling him, Phil pushed on the door...
Despite the fact the door made no sound, it was easy to tell Dan knew Phil was there, he sat on his bed, back turned to him.
The sight of Dan upset attacked Phil's subconscious like a virus, and what was worse, Phil knew it was him who had caused this... Swallowing the urge to cry, Phil placed himself on the opposite side of the bed, he let out a silent sigh...
"L-Look, Dan...I...I'm sorry about what I said before...I understand if you don't want to hear me speak right now...but, I.." Phil trailed off as the sudden fear that Dan would never want to speak to him took control of his mind, he choked as he tried to get another sentence out....
Dan
I knew Phil was in the room, I turned so he could see the tears staining my face... Why was I such a brat? Why couldn't I be more of an adult? He was right about me being childish because I was childish and I would never be anything more! He may never feel the way I do about him...he said so himself that I'm too much of a child to be sure of my feeling and I should have never opened my mouth ...
"Phil ... I ... I-I'm sorry I'm so sorry that I am such a child to you! But I am sure of my feelings for you! But now I know you could never feel the same as I am too childish and will never be anything better!! So if you going to say something to apologize don't even try because as I'm a child to you I obviously won't understand!" I yell my heart breaking and tears running down my face as his eyes well with tears and his hands shake beside him.
Phil
Phil flinched as Dan's voice rose in volume; seeing him like this was worse than any pain he could ever feel, he began to shake, tears beginning to roll down his face. Emotions battled violently, fighting for a say in what Phil thought. They screamed at him, louder than anything before, louder than every other time Dan had asked him what was wrong, every time he came SO close to telling him how he felt.
Every night that he had felt the same tears trickle down his face when he didn't have the strength to tell Dan what he felt for him...
It all came back.
Suddenly, he realized he had lost control; he grabbed Dan by his shoulders, the tears warming his cheeks, his mind was on fire as he began to shout as well:
"No Dan! It wasn't your fault! I shouted at you! I hurt you! I get it if you never want to see me ever again!" As his emotions fought, one rose, higher than any other, like it had had so many times before....
But this time, it wouldn't back down.
Never.
"I can't stand it when you're like this! I'll leave! What ever it takes to make you happy! I would do anything you want me to because I love you...!"
Phil stopped.
He had said it. He had finally....said it. Relief began to flood through Phil as the fire in his mind was put out.
Until he realized he had said it....right in Dan's face.
Shock hit Phil who sank to the wooden floor, shaking uncontrollably as he rocked back and fourth a little.
Dan
Phil and I are crumbled in a heap on the floor my arms wrapped around him keeping him safe from the demons in his head. Feeling him shaking was terrifying I wanted him to smile with his eyes so bright and beautiful and the way he covers his mouth while smiles ... "Phil... Do you know why I love you?" I felt him shake his head in a no. "Well I love you for you smile and how your eyes light up when I'm around you and it only happens when I'm around ... I love how you find your self so imperfect when your imperfections make you perfect and how you could never see how much I love the way you move, talk, dance and how we can dance together slow or fast and how you never leave my side in social situations because you know how I freak out ... You know more about me than anyone else and I trust you more and more every day ... I've never been able to confide in people and you are the first. I love you Phil forever and always." I kissed the top of his head, he's not shaking anymore and the tears aren't streaming down his face anymore, and his eyes are glossy blue looking into my dull brown eyes I bent down to kiss his lips and he moved up to kiss mine. As we connected it was fireworks not to sound cliché but it was true I'm not a little boy anymore.
Phil
Phil heard Dan, every word warming his heart. The tears stopped, the shaking ceased. He smiled uncontrollably as he felt Dan's arms wrap round him, wishing they would never let go.
"Dan....I love you because you made every day worth it, every day when I laughed with you made me feel like I meant something..." He turned and returned his love's embrace. "..Dan, I love you...forever and always." He said this before they shared their very first kiss.
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Okay! I feel so happy after this one! I thank Cokemania for the awesomes! Hope you loved it, thank you for reading!
