In Case of Emergencies (A One shot Book)

Sentimental

   Jimin's pov

Everything was set. The door was locked. I had triple checked. I knew no one would be around. No one comes to an indoor pool in the middle of November. My phone was unlocked with no password, so the police could read my note. The bricks were tied securely to the straitjacket. We were set.

   I turned to Namjoon. He was misty eyed, looking oh so guilty. "Stop crying you big baby. Your stronger than that."

   "I'm about to help my friend commit suicide. Don't you think I have a-a bit of an excuse to be emotional?!" I rolled my eyes. "Joonie, you were only my friend because you needed help learning how to flirt." "That's not true!! I've always considered you a friend! (Author's note: *cough* Hamilton *cough*) and a g-good, no, great one at that!"  I sighed.

For what seemed the hundredth time.

   "Look, all you have to do is tie me up, leave the area, and make up some story. You can do that Brain Mon, right? " A tear escaped his eye. "Please don't do this." I smiled softly at him. "Namjoon. Promise me. That after this, you won't give up on life. Love. Have kids. Or adopt for all I care. Be happy. Move on from me. I was never worth your time anyway. Find someone who deserves you." Namjoon made a noise somewhere between a sob and a chuckle. "Your such a piece of shit Jimin. Asking me to keep living while your about to take your own God damn life. Well played ass hole. All the shit that's pouring out of your mouth makes me want to p-punch you."

   "Yeah yeah, stop your bitching. Isn't Jin waiting for you-" "STOP IT! JUST STOP IT! I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS! I CAN'T WATCH YOU FUCKING DO THIS! DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THIS IS GOING TO BE FOR M-ME? STOP BEING SO GOD DAMN SELFISH AND FUCKING OPEN YOUR EYES!! WHAT'S YOUR MOM GONNA DO WHEN I TELL HER HER SON COMMITTED SUICIDE AND SHE UNWILLINGLY WAS ONE OF THE REASONS? OR WHEN THE POLICE COME QUESTIONING ME AND I HAVE A MENTAL BREAKDOWN OF SEEING YOU SINK UNDER THE WATER?! I WILL LOSE MY FUCKING MIND!! JIMIN! WAKE UP ALREADY!!"

   With all the strength in my body, I turned my icyest gaze on Namjoon. "You can try to stop me, but I will hate you. I will hate you for the rest of the moments I exist. I swear it. I will curse your name. I will do nothing but loathe your creation. I will never look at you without thinking of you as a traitor. You will spend the few seconds you have left with me remembering that I despise your life. I will make sure that if I even cross your mind, you'll be hit with hatred more potent than your parents rejection. DO. YOU. UNDER. STAND?"

   I instantly regretted the words that came out of mouth. I had meant none of it. I wanted to slap myself for hurting him so much. Namjoon was the one who stuck by my side like glue when "real" friends beat me down. He was the one that understood me, when no one else was willing to lend the ear. He was the one that shoved a boy's face into a toilet simply for calling me short. He was the one who asked for my advice when Jin had asked to go to the movies with me. He was the one that ran to me first when his parents kicked him out for coming out to them. We were the sappy little bromance in a girl's fantasies.

And I'd crushed our friendship into a little ball and set in on fire.

   But Namjoon was still trying to salvage the scraps.

"Please Jimin!! Ever since Yoog-" "DON'T SAY HIS NAME!! DON'T EVER SAY HIS NAME! YOU ALREADY KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE EVEN HEARING HIS NAME!" "WHICH IS WHY  YOU SHOULD BE OVER HIM ALREADY!! FUCKING CRY YOURSELF A RIVER JIMIN!! THEN BUILD A GOD DAMN BRIDGE!! AND GET YOUR SELF OVER IT!!" Then, ever so quietly, he added, "Please..."

   I was about to retaliate, when I heard sirens. At first I didn't mind them. But I then noticed what Namjoon was clutching...

   A surge of repulsion washed through my body. I glared at Namjoon with all the hate I could muster. "I couldn't do it. I'm sorry Chim Chim." I was taken aback by how wounded he sounded.

   "Why're you the one who sounds so defeated?" I said keeping my tone icy. "Because I'm so close to losing you. And it's all because of that bastard." He didn't need to elaborate any further. "Please stay. I'll promise to be the only love you'll ever need. Whether you want me as a friend or a boyfriend or a husband or father figure PLEASE let me stay by your side. For as long I can on this Earth. Plea-se." I swallowed.

Woah. This was... New information. I swallowed again, not quite believing my ears. "N-Namjoon... I..." An unbearably uncomfortable silence fell upon us and and I struggled to breathe. Namjoon...

Namjoon felt that way?

   Before anything else could happen between us, a thundering on the main doors caused us both to look up. "Could you please open the door sir?" A male voice shouted into the humid room. Slowly, I made my way to the door. Namjoon followed anxiously on my heels.

   Licking my lips, I eased it open.

_______________________________________________________________ Don't expect this story to go anywhere. It may simply be a really crappy one shot book, or this could stay up for 4 days then come down.

   If I ever even update, it'll probably be in a time span of 4 months to 4 years. Yeah. Unless someone wants me to update and write something for them, I have little motivation to write more. This story was simply something that I felt compelled to write.

   I thank you for even giving my story the time of day. So from me to you, on  a personal level. 🙏 thanks. 🙏

~HuggerLover