Betrayal

Broken Hearts

Slightly brushed I left the restaurant. I did expect it though. If you cheat on your lover with someone who has even a shorter temper than him you are bound to get bruised.

I got hit by her when she lost it. I ended the relationship since it really didn't feel fun anymore. She wasn't the one for me. I know that now. It really took me a while to figure that out but I guess I did now.

Don't get me wrong. It is not that it her fault that we happend to go out like this. It was all on me since I was the one who convinced her to start something. She even wasn't really into the idea untill her lover started acting odd.

Then was when she started to get invested into the idea but I guess I grew out of it as soon as she started to feel better.

I know that it isn't kind and I wouldn't normally do something like this but there was a spark and before I knew it there wasn't anymore. It was gone as fast as it had come to me.

Something that very likely is something that runs in the family. At least I am very sure that it was something my grandfather was very known about. He would get women to fall in love with him but as soon as it got very serious he made sure to get away as quick as he could.

That is why grandpa Rome has so many kids. He liked doing it with other women but as soon as he heard he was there father he made excuses to get out of the situation.

The only time he was unable to do that was when I was born. Since my mother and father died shortly after and Lovino still being a toddler back then, he had to take care of us.

It's funny how much I act like him sometimes. My brother sometimes brings it up since it annoys him so much.

It's the Italian charm I guess.

I am standing outside of the restaurant, having paid for the food we had eaten before I made my 'date' storm out. It was the only reason I actually had asked her to come here.

A bit douchy I know but I find breaking up with someone over a phone call or by texting.. like you are a coward. If you want to end a relationship with someone at least be a man and tell it to them. Then they can tell you their feelings as well.

Sending it by text doesn't really give you the real reaction that they had the very moment that they got the news. A text is planned, you think about the words you type down before you send them to someone. It is more calculated.

And over the phone it is just their voice. You don't see what your words have done to them. Also you can end the call right after and not even give them the time to react to what you just said.

I know that people see me as a coward and I guess in someone way I am one but at least I am man enough to face the anger of someone you break up with head on. Because I think it something you are supposed to be doing.

A small smile grows on my face as a notes the small drops of rain touching the stone path in front of me.
The beautiful weather from earlier has faded away. The warmth not replaced by a ice cold breeze and the moon covered by rain clouds. It started to rain but I didn't brother to move.

I liked where I was standing now. Reflexting on what had happend today and what the future would bring now.

But I really couldn't come with something, anything that I would see happening right now. I could not predict how my relationship with Brussels would turn out after this, neither could I figure out what would happen between Germany and me.

At the very least I could rest. If Brussels would grow to hate me that much that she wouldn't want to work with me anymore, there would still be my older brother that would make sure our boss would not get too mad.

One of us needs to be on good terms with her or we might risk things happen to us or our country. Though I don't think she would ever grow to hate Lovino. She is really close to him and basicly sees him as her little brother.

As for Germany.. I don't really know to be honest. Unlike Brussels, Germany isn't a predicable person. If he does something this way now it doesn't mean that he will do it the same way the next time.

I think a breakup would not be that bad to tell him but cheating. I don't think he would take that very lightly. He is a man of morals and cheating is something I am pretty sure I would not allow.

It is something I would want to keep hidden from him since it is very likely that he doesn't know what happend. But..

I don't want to lie to him. He has the right to know, at the very least. A relationship can only be build on honesty and care. Hiding a secret as big as this one would not do it very good.

So I got up from my spot against the wall, the rain now making puddles on the ground.

I would have to face my next trial now, not knowing it it would be better or worse than the previous one.

After walking for a little while I felt a buzz in my pocket. I stopped walking and searched for my phone, being suprise I actually had it on me for once. When I found it I read the text I just recieved:

'I am sorry Feliciano but I think we have to end things here. It's not your fault but mine.'