Rant

Lost in my thoughts.

I want to stay home alone.

I want to be lost in my thoughts.

I'm not lonely or depressed, so stop asking,

'Are you okay?'

How do I answer?

Is anyone really 'okay'?

Is anyone really happy?

'Happy.'

What is 'happy'?

What does it feel like?

How can I be sure that it's happiness?

That I actually enjoy something,

that I don't just expect to enjoy something and I subconsciously fill the expectations?

I don't know if I'm okay anymore.

But you don't need to know that.

You don't actually care.

You pity me.

That's why you ask.

I'm not alone,

so you don't need to pity me.

I want to stay home alone.

I want to be lost in my thoughts.