6:12pm
i haven't seen anti in over a week. i'm really worried. he hasn't shown up when i've yelled his name or anything. i think i'm going insane without him. maybe i could text sean? oh god is this really what
i've resorted to???
me: hey..
sean: oh hey!
me: um.. this is weird but i'm just wondering why i haven't seen anti in
over a week??
sean: oh... probably because signe broke up with me so hes letting me just... yeah
me: oh my god!! im so sorry sean i shouldn't have been so inconsiderate!! how are you?
sean: it's ok, really. i've been better, i guess.
me: im so sorry. anything i can do?
sean: no i'll be ok. anti will be with you soon, i promise. maybe not being in my body for awhile might help.
me: oh jeez.. take your time.. i'm ok by myself i swear
sean: alright.. i'll talk to you soon
me: bye sean, look after yourself :)
sean: please, just call me jack.
well fuck.
6:56 am
i haven't slept a wink. why'd she break up with him? did he tell her? did she find out? was she cheating? did she no longer love him? ugh this is so sad and frustrating. i push myself out of bed and wander to the kitchen for a glass of juice. while i'm pouring the glass, i feel arms snake around my waist. his face nestles into my neck and i hear him inhale desperately.
"i missed you so much, kitten." i'm startled by the sudden glitchy voice. i turn around and meet eyes with him.
"anti.." i smile and hug him tight but then realise what i was doing. i quickly push myself away and lean against the bench.
"what's wrong hun?" his face was full of confusion.
"y-you were touching me. i hugged you. i-im uh."
"shh baby it's ok i can control myself. i promise. come here." he pulls me into another embrace. i melt against his body. this is the first proper hug i've had from him, excluding the one sean, i mean jack, gave me. he gently strokes my hair, it's soothing. a shiver erupts over my body when he presses his lips to my neck.
"is jack ok?" i mumble into his black shirt. he smells really good.
"yeah. he feels better at the moment." i sigh with relief at anti's words. he shuffles backwards and leans against the kitchen island, not letting me go.
"we've been hugging for quite awhile." i announce. he chuckles.
"we've got a whole month and a half to make up for. i'll hug you as long as i want."
9:53 am
"baby girl??" i walk to my room, following the sound of his voice. my mouth drops. anti is standing there with just a towel wrapped low around his hips. i look him up and down, taking in every feature. holy shit he is sexy. i watch as he pushes his wet hair back from his face.
"y-yes?" i stutter. i don't think i'm gunna be able to concentrat-
"sweetie?? did you hear me?" oh my god he's walking towards me.
"n-no i didn't sorry please repeat yourself?" he smirks.
"you seem.. distracted. what is it, kitten?" oh you know FULL well what is distracting me.
"uh nothing im fine. what'd you say?"
"i said, can you please go get ready because i am taking you on a date." he's right there. i want to touch him so bad. why should i restrict myself for? i should be allowed to *especially* when he's looking like THAT. i reach my hand up and place it on his neck, feeling down his body slowly. i do the same with the other hand.
"what are you doing?" his eyes are fully black. i bite my lip as seductive as i could before taking a step forward.
"baby you can't do this." he growls. i smirk.
"and why not? you handled a hug so handle this." i move my hands smoothly around to his back and feel down. i watch as he shuts his eyes, his hands moving to my waist. he grips my shirt tightly.
"this. this is different. this is more difficult."
"maybe you shouldn't have called me into the room while you were almost naked then." i retort. he growls. i go to bring my hands back to his chest but i'm stopped. he grabs my wrists.
"you need to stop." he says through his teeth. i move up to his face a tug as his bottom lip with my teeth. a low moan escapes his mouth. he pushes me against the wall harshly, still holding my wrists above my head.
"i don't want to stop." i keep eye contact with him. he looks angry but full of lust. he leans down, his lips brushing mine. my breath hitches.
"i can't do this." he pulls away.
damn it. i was so fucking close.
