ALL I WANT

chapter 8:

Oh my god! How did cody recognize me ? He can't know I'm still alive . What should I do ? Shit! Shit! Shit! What's that? Fuck! That's his car ! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Why are you following me?!! Why?!! Now I have to take a turn . God damn it his speeding up . His catching up . I scattered my things trying to find a hat . No! No! Please don't catch up . Aha! I put on my hat and the glasses . Shit ! There he is ! He went passed my car and stop in front of mine . I stepped on the breaks as hard as I could . He then walks out . Oh god! Its him should I get out? Should I go? I don't know what happening . He was just few steps away from me . I can see him clear in my wind shield . His standing towards my car . What should i do? It feels like the time stopped.

"Hi .. Umm I don't mean to intervene .. Miss my friend here thinks that your someone we know .. Maybe if you could just ... Step outside for a minute ?.. ". He asked politely

I started my engine . I heard him say "this is stupid dude . let's just get back" he says to Cody . I then step on it and backed up driving the opposite way not looking back I went straight to my home . Kicking and breaking everything in my way while crying my heart out .

"I'm only steps away!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! " . I screamed in anger and despair. The pain! It hurts too bad .
" Briley I love you . I'm sorry , I'm so sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm so
... I'm sorry I can't tell you . I'm sorry I'm hurting you .. Briley I need you (holding his picture) Briley I need you .. Please.. End this suffering . I wanna die! " I kept saying those words feeling lost

I got up and went to the bathroom . Im thingking of drowning myself . I just wanna die . I kept hitting my head on the wall when I slipped and fall . I had hurt my back really bad on to the point I think I broke it . But it burns from my neck to my upper bottom . I looked in the mirror . What the.. There are #'s in my back? F... R..S..I..T ..7..3...6..0...9..1..**...0..1  What the fuck is this?? I don't remember having this ? I tried to erase it with water but it won't . It only hurts more when I touch it . ah .. My stomach hurts .. I can't breathe .. (Inhale exhales rapidly) "ahhhh" I screamed in pain . Whats happening? My chest hurts I putted my hand in the chest . My legs are wearing off . I fell down and hit me head in the toilet . I screamed and screamed but noons rushed in for help . My eyes were watering. I wiped tears from my eye
. Its yellow? What?! It is ! I must be hallucinating . I slapped myself nothing! The pains unbearable its hurts so much . I couldnt stand all I can do Is scream . Every vein in my body hurts . My muscles feels like its being torn apart . I crawled from the bathroom to the living room for the phone but I'm too weak and in so much pain I could not move at all . So I just layed down in the carpet . until my vision went black .