I wish I didn't try to do the right thing,
I wish I were capable of twisted evil deeds
I want to be a dark and vengeful god
Terrifying all who would gaze upon me
I don't give a fuck about being good
And you wouldn't either if you'd stood where I've stood!
I wish that I had horns, and eyes that glowed like embers
I wish I were a monster, then maybe I'd be free
I wish I lived alone, in mountains frozen like December
No one would ever dare to depend upon me
I wish I'd never written that first earnest love letter
I could've thus avoided a world of misery
I wish that I could see a crying girl and pass her by
I never want to pick up another broken soul
I wish that I could ignore those in pain, about to die
I don't want to weep when I hear music that's beautiful
I want to believe that all I said was lies
That I've never actually been in love before
But I can't, 'cause it's not true
I'm not sure which of these hurts more
I've been accused of crimes I don't even understand
Been told I've said and done things that one cannae reconcile
Trust not what you'll be told was done by my hand
You'll hear I've beaten people bloody, that I'm evil, cruel, and vile
I'll never claim to be anything resembling a good man
But there's only so many times I can hear that I'm reviled
I fell in love with a maniac, then an Angel, then a dream
I wrote until my hands were numb, about all they did for me
But now they're gone, it's just me and the Devil
Maybe if I marry her I'll finally reach a higher level
The Angel called me toxic, to the dream I was a nightmare
But I treated them like gold — fuck it, we won't even go there.
I understand completely, now that it's all behind me
My good intentions weren't worth shite to those I tried to save
It's like I never spent a moment with them on the ground bleeding
It's like I never fought for them or listened to them greet and rave
No matter what, they call me villain, to hell with all I sacrifice
All my efforts wasted, turned to hatred and avarice!
I tried my best to play the part, smiling, acting righteous
And what did it get me? TORMENT! Tell me, how can I fight this?
Such reckless hate, such mindless disdain
As if life didn't give us all enough pain!
I failed! I get it! Now allow me to die!
Have them put on my epitaph, "Damn it Horseman, pass me by!"
