Chara x Sans One Shots

Orange

-[do you love him?] - Frisk ask me. I smile brightly even though my heart start aching.
-[You love him and he loves you. He's just a friend to me] - I lied. I gets up and walks away from her. Pulling my Green Hoodie over my head. Staring at the sky which is dyed in the color of Orange I smile. Feeling pity for myself.

I walk on the familiar path to my apartment. Opening the door my tears just flows out themselves.

-[I can't cry. He wouldn't love me if I do] - I thought to myself. Pushing the door opening it  and walking inside. I drop myself on the couch screaming into the pillow and just burst in tears. Realizing how much I love him and cared. I get up. Opening my diary that I stuffed all of my thoughts and emotions in. So I can hide underneath the shell of a coward. I love him. But he loves her. Either way. I will just hurt myself. What's the point.

[Monday. **/*/2***.
I must say the truth that I only laugh at the world that he loved me. I hated the future that I hold upon me. His smile. Warmth. The way he talks.]

Suddenly my tears ran down and soaked the page. I cried, in the pain and because I didn't tell him, because I'm just the third person. Funny. What rights do I got to make him love me. I take a pill and drown myself in the nonexistent dream of mine.

In the snow covered town. We holds our hands. I lied myself that I was happy. I laugh in this nonexistent dream. I wish I could hold on your hands forever and standing with you. At this paradise deep underground. The story about you the person that I never stopped loving. The story about a weak human like me get attached with you. The boy with the pale skin like snow and silver hair . You're a special person to me. Yet I let you go. It couldn't change that you've gone away from me.

-[What if there's no tomorrow for us?] - I asked you and you answered with a smile. - [oh yea right. You're just a illusion that I made for myself. Forever and forever. You're gone.]

That right. Yea right. Let's hide away this emotions of mine. I want to send one thing to you. But I still search for that thing.

I woke from my dream yet again with my tear full face. I does my normal morning routine. I walk out of my apartment and head to the park for some fresh air.

-[how are you today?] - the familiar voice told me. I turned around and you're smiling brightly with Frisk's hand in yours. I fake a smile- [I guess your smile haven't rotted.  So have you fallen in love deeply with someone yet?]- you asked me.

I didn't speak. I smile in return and walks away from you, with my tears start flowing. Though I know that my hope of a time to hold you had disappeared. Guess I have to lock it in.

I walks away. And head to the near by bench. I sit down, wiping away my tears. I look at the sky and thought about the past of ours.

At a snow covered town. We both had a happy childhood. We made a childish promise to stay with each other forever. But as we grow up. None of us satisfied by what we had, so you left me. I kept the promise in my heart and try to not break it. And of course I'm the only one that had the nightmares, that's right. So I could be with you.

[if I could just forgive myself. If I try to hold on. I'm sure that! Surely.. nothing would change the fact that you love her.] - I thought.

The urge to end myself doesn't go away but start to grow up. So I don't need to take this pain anymore.

I walk home. Opening the balcony and sit at the table out there I pulls my phone out. Holding my tears I text you.

[hey do you remember the time where first met? I got something to tell you. About all the lie I've told and how weak I am. But it's like always, you hold on Frisk's hand, the girl that look alike with me. Every time like that, I felt the pain in my chest. I understand you love her, she's much better then me. I realized that how much you've changed since then. And I realized the feeling I had for you from the first time we met. I used to think that we'll stand by each other and stand against the world with each other. But now. I understand that the worse thing would happen to me is death. If I go the pain won't remains, you'll forget my soon. I search and follow the voice of the past. If I get to reborn. I'll sure to go search for you first.]

I hit send and left my phone on the table and climbs on the railing. Sitting on it. Staring at the sky slowly got dyed by orange. You appeared and try to grab me. But I drop down looking at you with a smile.

[I love you. The truth is I smile in the world that had you. The truth is I hide the future I've seen. Your smile. Your warmth and all of your love. Good bye.]