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dont mind me its a depressing chapter

So I was listening to my friends playlist and this one song came on
It was going like 'I'm jealous of the rain that touches you' and I know it's about a break up but it makes me think of my friend Sophiem
I never got to touch her. All these people, the rain, the grass, I'm jealous of everything and everyone she's touched. We made promises to each other that one day, when we hugged, we'd never let go. I never got the chance to. It's why I'm normally against long distance anything, I don't want to repeat it again. Because I'm not good at people leaving me. And I know it's a higher chance I'll never meet half of everyone I know online, and all the promises that we'll never let go are broken. Whether it's suicide, cancer, both, neither. In her note, her suicide note, the last thing on it was 'I'm always hugging you now.'
So yeah, sorry I just needed to talk about it sorry.