Somewhere in Between

Sedated

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After the kiss and the party, I couldn't stop thinking about Cameron. The thought of him and I being a thing- oh his kisses. His kisses would be the death of me and the cure of me wanting to die. He's what I want. He's what I need.

But that's not me. That's against of what I believe in. I don't want love. I don't want anyone to feel any type of emotion towards me. I push them away- he'll get to close and he'll see the real me and I'll push him away before he sees to much.

Although at the same time I want him. I will break all the walls and borders I've created around myself, my heart and soul just to let him in. I want to get to know him. This is silly, I've known him for like a week and I'm saying so much stuff about him. Love at first sight is total bullshit so I can't even say it's because of that. I don't even know how he feels! He could be regretting that kiss right now.

I know I don't. But then my phone began to ring.

Nash- hey dude.
Cameron wants your number.
He wants to talk.
Is it okay if I give it to him?
You're not texting back fast enough I'm giving it to him now.

Fuck he gave Cameron my number. I mean that's not problem but what does he want to talk about? What if he wants to get together again and see what happens from then. Or he might tell me to fuck off and never bother him again. I hope not.

As soon as I started to get to deep in my thoughts I heard my phone started to ring. I already knew it was no other than Cameron. So I picked it up.

I could hear his music playing and it went like
" my baby keeps me sedated "