The Hot Jerk Next Door [ exo // editing ]

chapter vii. confessions and his past

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Hello guys! This chapter is kind of emotional, so better get your tissues ready by this time! Nah, just kidding. So, without further a due, here is Chapter 7 of The Hot Jerk Next Door! Make sure to support the story - don't hesitate to leave your comments down below! I'd highly appreciate it.

KAI

After eight hours of sleep and thinking about what happened, I woke up with a sad face, still mourning about what happened yesterday. It felt like everything fell apart and all the broken pieces were lost, and that I couldn't bring them back together. And even if I did, it still wouldn't be the same as before. I saw my face on the closet mirror. Damn, I still have your usual morning face, but my head didn't seem to mind that

"That face, that face. That face that played with girls. That face that broke hearts and feelings. But is this what I really am?" I thought to myself as I saw my reflection in the mirror. I'm starting to question myself and my past. Memories came flooding back as I closed my eyes.

A fragile being I was before my first love came. I didn't have much girlfriends, I was easily heart-broken and hurt. Until she broke my heart, and I felt like love does nothing but hurt you. I took revenge, and pain made me who I am today.

Pain changes everybody.

I remembered what happened between me and my very first love. I mended her my heart, to keep her safe, but it was all worth less. I couldn't make her happy, so I let her go. Even though I couldn't bring a smile at the times we were together, I wanted someone to make her feel comfortable, with someone else.

It hurts, but I don't want to force someone to love me. I wished the best for her. I saw her once with his boyfriend, all happy, something that we were not during the times we were together. I remember crying to sleep, mentioning, "I still love you!"

Flashback

"Babe, I---" She threw the gift on the floor and stepped on it. "You know what, Kai? I've had enough of this shit. I'm tired. I don't want to love you anymore. All your efforts are worthless and stupid. I regret being with you all along. Goodbye, Kim Jong In," she turned her back and left, leaving me frozen.

I broke down in tears. I loved her with all my heart, and all I did was try to make her happy. But I guess all those didn't pay off. Where did I go wrong? Weren't my efforts good enough? What did I do to let my whole world shatter into pieces?

I looked at my face in the mirror. I removed my glasses and put them aside. I clenched my fist as tears began escaping my eyes, "I will change who I am. And I will let them feel my pain I had gone through!"

Everything that happened in the past, there were still in my head. This is what I've become because of pain. As I opened my eyes, a tear escaped. Damn, I'm so, so emotional.

She made me realize. I mean they, Do Kyungsoo and Aryx Lim. They made me realize that love is something that changes a person. Should I hold back and set them both free? What do you think should I do?

"Kim Jongin gets what he wants."

Should I live by that quote, or should I just face the fact that they were meant to be? I'm not some rude jerk like they see me. I love her - but will stealing her from Kyungsoo make all our lives any better? I'm confused. I don't know what to do in this type of situation.

"Good morning," A voice interrupted my thoughts. I quickly wiped my tears away, and saw Aryx standing beside the door, with a forced smile and a tray of food. "I brought you breakfast."